Jordeaux - Ashes lyrics

[Verse:] Let's take it back to the day that I was born into this earth My mother said my whole life never sabotage my worth I'm 18 now and ain't recognized my potential Until I'm in front of a mic with a dope instrumental Instead of being flashy I'd rather be an influence Second-guessed myself, but who's to blame I'm only human Took my rhymes back to the heart I was tired of following trends I'd rather have a couple real homies than a lot of friends I'd rather own the drive in my soul than to lose it to a Benz I'd rather go swallow my pride and ask forgiveness for my sins And when my life ends, let my songs live And every time I lose I'm coming harder to win the same way LeBron did Remember talking to God it seemed he never responded I prayed for success cause it was heavy on my conscience And Swan is the brother that's coming for the crown For my fam and for my town, regardless I put it down Since love ain't a resident, I'm keeping my heart separate And through these tracks it's evident I'm a force to be reckoned with I'd rather rap on topics in my life that have some relevance A star was born in 1994 and now it's war For all these haphazard rappers who claim they k**ed it before But now with envy in their hearts cause they know the people want more It's towards them that I deplore, yeah I'm sure I comtemplated quittin' til I heard the instrumentals that allured me And now before me, I see it in a different light Last night I said I'd quit but it's a different night A different life to live because I'm older now A lot of things up on my shoulders now, I gotta be a soldier now I gotta hold it down, by any means Cause with the right state of mind I'll conquer anything Just let me live man, just let me live If you think that you lost then you already did I learned that I wrote this on a day I was discouraged about it all So I figured I would take it to these verses It sounds better when it's you, that's what you have to know They try to shove me into the lane where these other rappers go Almost fed into it till I realized that the status quo Wasn't fitted for me so I snapped back to reality The game is over stocked with copy cats and it just saddens me So when you see me with a mic know I do it pa**ionately I'm actually not stopping till these rappers turn to casualties That's from my heart and soul That's spiritual and cardio Disappointed some, I done broke a couple hearts I made a lot of decisions, a lot of them weren't smart Man I don't know where to start, but I'm reedy on my mark And I know that I'm in Gods hands on this adventurous walk We call life, as long as I think I'm a a winner I'll be alright The top is waiting for me, thinking 'bout it all night They doubt I'm the future well then I'm turning on lights Lately in the booth I been having some long nights So when it happens and I've done what I imagine I'll turn impossible possible, leave my opponents lagging Through these songs and poems hope my goals all established If my words don't live, might as well turn me to ashes