Jonwayne - City Lights lyrics

I see my past highlighted by my city lights I take the alleyways, grabbing on this battered mic The dark shedded light My peers after mine I'm just hoping that they also love the afterlife Either that or whatever is creeping after life See, I'm a man tonight I see these boys looking joyful with their toys While I'm grabbing on my Samsonite The smell of leather lingers As I watch these calendars slip through my fingers I don't wanna meet my maker, just make my meters And keep them burning And every day I have I hope they keep me learning Reading these books, getting lost, feel at home like the search is my cause And the music is my God speaking sermon after sermon I see them all saluting, thank me for my service, I did it for me But it keeps me going on and you can see what I see Know an adolescent out there wanna be what I be There's a price to a young'un You most likely don't invite the kind of vices we brung in Be it poison of the body or the kind you can't see cause it's creeping up behind And if they don't have footing they can slip right in their mind Torn apart by anxiety and ripples of ill See I'm seeing it still And I struggle with the deep-end Drowning in my thoughts but my body's breathing 'cause my nephew's still teething and I'd like to see him frequent Dusting cobwebs on my way to speak to Jesus That's who we pray to when our young mind was feening for a reason to the season But the wind is blowing harsh tonight Do I even need to tell you that it's raining? Or can you feel it? 'Cause I can feel it It might as well be the blood of the Earth And if it is then it's flooded my entity These rivers got me caught between infinities I feel the cold dirt cover every inch of me Open my mouth and these demons are creeping into me My lungs are full of sin It felt better when I had this belly full of gin It felt better when I couldn't wait for life to end We had our moments, G We never speak about the time we saw the end of things We had a dryer in our hands and we missed the tub I'm thankful every day I thank our family who kept us going every way Before the scene they helped me blossom to this fiend I can taste the first sweat on my lips To the time I had the first girl's head in my grip Wasn't calling out the father Thinking I'm a man, I'm a man Little did you know that was never part of the plan You ain't a man till you traveled through these sands in the hourgla** So listen close I need to tell you something deep