Jon Connor - Blame Game lyrics

Ah, on a bathroom wall I wrote: "I'd rather argue with you than be with someone else!" I took a piss and dismiss it like "f** it" And I went and found somebody else, else, else, f** arguing and harvesting the feelings, Yo, I'd rather be by my f**ing selfs elf, self Till about two a.m. and I call back And I hang up and I start to blame myself Somebody help! You used the crack cause both your parents was Addicts and your sister was ratchet So I made it my mission to get you above of that sh** Probably my fault for trying to be a hero when I can't be Or your fault for sending me DMs that says, "save me!" sh** I was trying, I know that we been had some ups and downs That exhibit house found out you and some other n***a f**ing now sponsored links Lied and said you told him about us and that he don't mess with you Well if ya'll ain't f**ing, why the f** this n***a texting you? While you was sleeping I'd go and pick up your phone And said, "babes, is you okay? And let me know when you coming home!" So I put you on a plane like I'm done with you I fly back to Flint and I'm back in the back And we're choking and f**ing you. I know you ain't getting this type of dick from that local dude You was running game on me like this n***a was coaching you. I'm f**ing girls over while you was f**ing some other dude In the beginning saw something in you, but that just wasn't you. Love don't cost a thing, and that's why I wouldn't cheat Western Union every week so you and your daughters could eat Western Union every week so you and your kids could sleep On a bed while your sister would throw you out on the street. Thought if I showed you California and the sh** that I was doing with the music You would stop being so motherf**ing stupid! I wouldn't try to buy you, I tried to be by you Wanted you and them girls to have a f**ing better life too Came home for Christmas, I think it was on a Friday Drive to your crib, homies' car was already in the driveway I walked to the door, my future flashed before my eyes I'm finally signed and I'm about to give it up over pride See I just left Hawaii and now I'm standing in the hood Arguing with a n******g over a b**h I was calling wifey. This n***a stood in front of you and said you was his side b**h, You still behind that n***a he looking at me like that's my b**h. Wanted to ... but we in somebody else's home She kept telling me to leave cause she was already gone 1000 dollars in an envelope you can have it I made sure you had it, even if I ain't had sh**. Always said "Jon we're living too different lives" Ain't know that's an excuse for you f**ing two different guys Outer beauty never hides the ugliness that's inside Memories haunt my mind, but all I know is that I tried. Told you I'd leave you alone if you was really in love with him We could never work cause you ain't never stop f**ing him It all was a lie, regardless of how I felt Now I see you for who you are, Can't do nothing but blame myself For real!