Jon Connor - Everyday Struggle lyrics

[Intro] Rest in peace to the Notorious B.I.G Salute to one of the greatest to ever do it Y'all know me man, people's rapper right Tell y'all about me [Verse 1] Look, it was just me my moms and my sis In a two bedroom house Mama slaving at the shop trying to keep food in our mouth Everyday she came home, I seen the stress on her face She told me never work a job that I hate Don't depend on another man on every dollar you make And don't take a minute for granted every hour is fate So she sent us to private school, it was about more than education Was an escape from the hood sh** we saw on a daily basis Needless to say nobody respected that in the hood I would say that, you go to school, everybody living good I had a dad, I ain't have a dad cuz he was in and out cuz one day he was cool the next day he was wildin' out The first time I saw [?] [?] four days car missing now I'm supposed to take pictures, tomorrow at school, heard shots laying in bed Tell me how I'm supposed to smile with all that sh** in my head, for real [Hook] I don't want to live no more, sometimes I hear d**h knocking on my front door I'm living every day like a hustle, another job to juggle, another day another struggle I don't want to live no more, sometimes I feel hear d**h knocking on my front door I'm living every day like a hustle, another job to juggle, another day another struggle [Verse 2] I remember me and my sister running away from home Moms and pops fist fighting they looked up and we was gone Just remember momma smiling all the time, trying to be strong, even though we knew what was going on My household disintegrating and she probably instigating everything we do around the house she getting irritated Friends coming over every weekend playing cards A lot of laughing a lot of drinking coming from my front yard That was just a way to release the stress have a piece of rest because every week she would pray she could leave this mess Marriage then turn into drama now it's like why even bother But the problem is she want a son and daughter to have a father What's even harder is I know my mama got good karma and it seem like I'm the reason that things keep getting darker It seems that if I ain't say nothing it'll never stop So imagine the burden having to tell your mom to leave your pops [Hook] [Verse 3] This last verse for my sister when we were ready to cry We would listen to Biggie this was our favorite joint on Ready to Die Nobody know my pain like you do because the sh** affected you too And only few knew what we would do was f**ing crucial Criss Cross and Salt n Peppa posters on the wall Little brother complex always trying to hang with y'all And I was probably out of here and what you forgot all about in the living room rapping positive [?] I got it man, put me on to hip-hop, Big Pac We would connect through our learning lyrics just trying to impress you 2 kids in the ghetto sharing the bedroom, bunkbeds it taught us to never settle What the f** can I tell you, see this is a bond never broken by time And I get a lot of praise for I struggle and I rhyme But you went through the same thing and survive too How these people idolize me, I idolize you [Hook]