John Trudell - Tears for Rain lyrics

and during those sometimes when its harder to remember reasons to laugh than it is to remember reasons to cry it has to do with how remember remembers the realms of memories and pick and choose the conditionings of pain leave deeper imprints repressing laughter in a competition of pick me stars in the night dimming bright racing the sun with memories of good and bad lined up in line who do we pick out first and most in the lined up reliving same shadow parts of the past all overs as good memories and reasons to laugh wonder who and what turned the past into the diseased feelings transmuted into ambushes of hysterical feeding our natural fires into emotional fevers high octane combustion for erupting internals and at the core of blaming is blaming ourselves in the mining by trauma with distorting perception's the wronged become the wrong and thats their worth turning images of self into fragments of who we are good things that happened and reasons to laugh wait wanting their fair turn to bring the balance they bring feeling like wall flowers in the dance hall of memories with to too many singers singing to many sad songs like a desperate drought in a desert using tears for rain