John Trudell - Isn't My Life/Elk Song lyrics

This isn't my life I'm living Trying to fit in where there's no room Conditioned for roles to play Keeps changing the shape I'm in This isn't my life I'm living Too much mistaking vanity for love Not sure who I'm fooling But I don't think it's me anymore Don't even know When I changed into a shadow Don't even know When I lost the battle Points I tried to prove were too sharp Running up a score I couldn't handle This isn't my life I'm living Trying to fit in where there's no room Conditioned for roles to play Keeps changing the shape I'm in Days wearing away day after day Accepting what I know I shouldn't Believing in what I couldn't Tricking myself with nothing to say This isn't my life I'm living A promise isn't as real as I thought Giving and receiving altered To sold and bought The emperors new clothes Aren't my size Too synthetic wearing truth into lies Now I understand why the sky is falling When I hear those long distance sighs Somewhere my soul keeps calling Days wearing away day after day Accepting what I know I shouldn't Believing in what I couldn't Tricking myself with nothing to say This isn't my life I'm living Somewhere my soul keeps calling