John Sekula - Too Much Nothing lyrics

I'm always excusing myself But now it's getting hard to tell The reason why I even care Increasingly, I'm unaware Instead of bettering myself I'm crawling deeper in my shell The whole point that I am alive Seems to escape me at this time I think too much nothing too much I've never known how to behave I've never strayed far from the grave I need to get up off the ground To force myself to make a sound