John Floreani - Fortunate lyrics

My life These days Busy friends And late trains A mattress on the floor In a city that's been good to me All this distraction from my old life It haunts my decisions and plagues my mind 'Cause after all I'm just a kid Who's aspiration's were never more than dreams But they still remain I'm not going anywhere Anywhere I've fought so hard just to stand here Overwhelming silence Silence I found where I belong I needed this As the smoke leaves my lungs From my last cigarette I'll fight my last fight In a desperate attempt To prove that I'm worth it Worth your attention Portrayed my rendition Of a broken boy I'm so tired of hiding Behind my pen It only goes to paper What comes off my chest But I can't forget I've struggled to find a place that I could stay Because settling has never been an option for me I'd trade it in to never feel afraid But everything goes away I'm not going anywhere Anywhere I've fought so hard just to stand here Overwhelming silence Silence I found where I belong I needed this According to me I'm my own worst enemy I can't keep a simple promise Or swear on anything The bottle attached to my hand Proves that addiction makes For a lesser man And I can't muster up The motivation To break away From this f**ing pattern I'm not going anywhere Anywhere I've fought so hard just to stand here Overwhelming silence Silence I found where I belong I needed this