Joe Budden - I Messed Up lyrics

[Emanny] This wasn't what it's supposed to be I went from having fun to having fantasies And I had every chance to get you away from me But now I am just coming back like a fiend You went from a slide to a friend Then a lover now you're everything Tryna lie and tell myself that you ain't anything But I'm in your bed with my phone off Should be out the door but I doze off When I know I should be leaving But I can't control how I am feeling [Hook] I messed up I started to care Wish I could leave her right after we finish But I stay in it I messed up I fell in love with her Not what I wanted or needed But found it now tryna lose it I messed up I messed up I messed up yeah [Emanny] Never did it occur to me That one night of pa**ion could ever Lead to you being the one for me Can't believe I let you get close to me I am out of my mind to ever think that I could Keep this up without getting caught up with the reality Try and lie and tell myself you don't mean anything But I'm in your bed with my clothes off Should put a condom on but we go raw And I know I might be tripping But I can't ignore how you're feeling [Hook] I messed up I started to care Wish I could leave her right after we finished But I stay in it I messed up I fell in love with her Not what I wanted or needed But found it now tryna lose it I messed up I messed up I messed up yeah [Joe Budden] I mean...we all do. Check this.. I mean we started out respectable Was just a good time but it opened mind when she was bis**ual And now I am confused as I stare at the ceiling While laying in bed with you no senses like a vegetable You the type of chick that I tell my n***as I'd never do Was supposed to be the pop off Top me off every time she got dropped off Somewhere in there all morals got lost Looking like a**ault without a weapon Shorty with her guard down and me without protection Was taught that you can't tame a ho But if you should try and get denied you shouldn't blame a ho That's the only game she know but I keep a poker face Cuz With all the sh** that I hear about her It be ashamed if n***as knew that really I cared about her Started out respectable Was just a good time but opened my mind When she was that flexible And changed the whole set of rules Now instead of calling shorty a cab I let her stay And honestly she might be the best mistake I've ever make [Hook] I messed up I started to care Wish I could leave her right after we finished But I stay in it I messed up I fell in love with her Not what I wanted or needed But found it now tryna lose it I messed up I messed up baby I messed up