Jet Gladstone - A Black Speck lyrics

[Verse 1] An emotional dead n***a living hater in the near After the shots, you hear him run against the fear All the tear channels leaking like a broken rubber Drugs fail to ease the pain, man that was his only cover Looking for the fresh air, choking when the sirens Bring him back to reality, lost all the Cali weed Daydreaming insanity, stripper without the vanity All you hear is profanity, happened to Christianity Now he in the cell, apologizing and talking to God Like it's the only spell, cause he going through hell Tend to be egotistical with his intelligence But doubting himself when he get with that ambivalence Crashing the scene, like they crushing his dream Losing his mind but all he want is a gleam Lil n***a feeling like a crack in the seem And all he sees is the blood on the man in the scene [Chorus] I get by, by myself and get high In the mind state, you live and you die n***as start to cry, piss and moan Doing everything just to get by Then I look for the answer up under the sky Living out a life of s**, bringing in the cashed checks Every night he coming home resemble a train wreck Reminiscing with a six pack on the black deck Look up under the sky, realize he just a black speck [Verse 2] All his life running round talking like a G But his momma know him better n***a ain't no fooling me Caught the world, turn around, b**hes standing all around Climbing out the box but ain't nobody want a lost and found Every little thing the f**ing life that he'd be going through Didn't realize that everything he knew was really true Eyes painted blue, like he losing his identity No damn authentity, happened to all the memories Only felt the pain of the life he was living Didn't till his mind started giving in Peer pressure setting in, taking sh** from all the friends Thinking bout the positive but then he start to sin again Crashing the scene, like they crushing his dream Losing his mind, but all he want is a gleam Lil' n***a feeling like a crack in the seem And all he sees is the blood on the man in the scene [Chorus] I get by, by myself and get high In the mind state, you live and you die n***as start to cry, piss and moan Doing everything just to get by Then I look for the answer up under the sky Living out a life of s**, bringing in the cashed checks Every night he coming home resemble a train wreck Reminiscing with a six pack on the black deck Look up under the sky, realize he just a black speck [Verse 3] His family tells him that he needs a new life Looking round when he sees a black silver coated knife It isn't the way, in a mind he know he really gotta stay They told him to leave, for he rot up and decay Not even wiling to take him to the halfway Marks and black burns, filling him like an ashtray Finds and learns, that he really isn't hombre Another day pa**ed tryna cover with a chambre On the inside it Kinda feel like "I'm beaming" But the rents thinking every rapper's a demon Couple days ago he kinda thought that he was dreaming Reality hits hard, gotta find a meaning Wish I could tell you I really like how I'm living Wish I could tell you that I enjoy what I'm given Wish I could tell you I wake up and feel driven But all I can say is I really wanna be forgiven [Chorus] I get by, by myself and get high In the mind state, you live and you die n***as start to cry, piss and moan Doing everything just to get by Then I look for the answer up under the sky Living out a life of s**, bringing in the cashed checks Every night he coming home resemble a train wreck Reminiscing with a six pack on the black deck Look up under the sky, realize he just a black speck