Jeffrey Peterson - Fatherless Child lyrics

[Verse 1] Another black n***a raised without a father Kids called me ba*tard, I was raised by my Momma Grew up in the ghetto, I was fazed by the drama Soul tainted by the devil, now it's d**h before dishonor I ain't have no guidance, when I get mad, I resort to violence Fighting n***as on the corner, then run when I hear the sirens My mind is stuck in cycle, that a knife and a rifle Should be used against you if I really didn't like you Why you lie to me when all I want is truth? Why you couldn't understand the pain that I was going through? Why you never came all the times you said you coming through? It's not just me, man, my Momma said she hate you too How you supposed to be a father and can't lend a helping hand? Every time you make a child, you run off and disappear Are you scared to be a man? Do you wanna face your fears? Am I worthy as your son? Sometimes I just wanna grab a gun and just.... (run away) [Hook] Sometimes life can be depressing My Momma stressing 'cuz I got arrested Tryna fit in and get accepted because I was neglected By my father who was never there since adolescence As a child, I was affected, the pain wasn't expected Now I'm running wild, being reckless But I calmed down for a second and thought about my blessings. Now I'm writing this music, sending a message... [Verse 3] My little sister's looking up to me There's no such thing as giving up to me Good role model, no liquor bottle and luxuries But I'm smoking like I work at the tobacco company Puffin' on a cigarette to k** the stress Nicotine in my breath, the hennesy heal the rest Feel the world is on my back, gotta get this off my chest L'm writing rhymes, reciting raps, just to keep my mind intact And every line applying facts to my twisted reality A gifted personality. I'm still waiting on my father Is he coming back for me? Momma said you don't amount to half of me Since I'm her only son under the sun, I listen carefully She carried me for nine months, always took good care of me And all you ever did was embarra** me By never being there for me Now I elevate my soul spiritually The man I am today, you couldn't even compare to me [Hook] Sometimes life can be depressing My Momma stressing 'cuz I got arrested Tryna fit in and get accepted because I was neglected By my father who was never there since adolescence As a child, I was affected, the pain wasn't expected Now I'm running wild, being reckless But I calmed down for a second and thought about my blessings. Now I'm writing this music, sending a message... [Bridge] Father, as your son, I just wanted to be the one to walk in your shoes Someone I could learn from, the one who dropped j**els. Teach me about life and inspire me in school Love thy wife and she shall love you Share with me the wisdom from a wise man's view And it hurts to say that I don't know you Look what I've been through. Should I just.... (run away) [Hook] Sometimes life can be depressing My Momma stressing 'cuz I got arrested Tryna fit in and get accepted because I was neglected By my father who was never there since adolescence As a child, I was affected, the pain wasn't expected Now I'm running wild, being reckless But I calmed down for a second and thought about my blessings. Now I'm writing this music, sending a message...