Jazz Logic UK - Stuck In Self-Pity lyrics

[Verse 1: Sam Mackey] I'm not too sure where my heads at Thinking about the can and the can't Am I just sitting and waiting Reserving my self-destruction For the right life malfunction? When the events present Will I be able to clear my mind? And decide what's truly relevant? To run my nose into that line Or stay deprived and help my sister love life? You would think it was simple And that's why I'm vengeful Attacking my self out of shame And that's the price paid Cause roads given made too easy And in no prosperity and a large fleet Prepare for battle and just know Your best weapon is the ability to avoid putting on that dramatic show Honesty and modesty Are difficult cause I attention seek And once I get what I've danced for I'm gone to the next dancing for more I believe your beliefs cause I don't know myself The way I feel isn't matting with the sounds of my mouth [Verse 2: Sam Mackey] Stuck in self pity It's your fault the pinch feels free Convinced me this is true serenity An excuse followed to the dirty city Shame and worthlessness is why I smoked Thought I was worth less than this ten dollar toke And I used that last line to make me feel okay About where I ended up, lost and astray Stuck in yesterday Push this in and get blown away I'll be right back to the feeling of the unfortunate, forgotten, unloved one Down in the gutter eyes to the sun In my hand lays a gun Not to the head but to the veins Believe my made up lies of how I won't be tamed This is where pity leads us all Up and out of the gutter we will have to crawl But hey, why not make the most of today? Instead of training my mind in a complacent way Left down and out with concerns of what the ladies will say But hey, why not make the most of my health? Instead of hurting and abusing myself Stuck with thoughts of how to gain the most wealth But blessed with the knowledge to stray far from that rout I'm looking for a good place to sit Breathe and light another cigarette I contradict myself all the time Sometimes I'm so far gone I believe my flesh is bread And my blood is wine