Jaytekz - If I Should lyrics

[Hook: Joseph Kay] Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here [Verse 1: Jaytekz] What is life if you can't make the most of it ? What is love if you can't get a hold of it ? What's a smile if you're not really happy ? Wake up everyday with a frown feeling crappy Tell me what is laughter when you just want to cry And life is a disaster and you just want to die Nobody understands how you feel deep inside But you got to stay strong with your head held high I got so many questions Yeah, why is life such a b**h when you least expect it ? And how does everybody have it all figured out ? As I sit and pout, this sh**s so depressing f**, I'm so emotional I CANT FEEL NO PAIN ALL THE ni**aZ AND HOES HURT US AND WE CANT DO NUN TON THEM I guess these are the thoughts of a broken soul With a broken heart, outspoken mind I'm trying to find who I am on this path of mine But I don't know, I don't know It's been a long time since I felt like myself I might as well grab the nine and take the safety off And let the bullet pierce right through my scalp sh**, I need help sh**, I need help sh**, I need help I don't really know who the f** I can turn to I try to take my time and listen to advice See, I was told patience is a virtue But I'm sick and tired of being sick of life f** tomorrow, I want to die tonight f** the future, f** the present f** the drama Yo, f** the stressing f** the judgements, f** a**umptions f** the ones who made me feel like nothing f** ‘em all, yo I'm done talking Stay the f** away when I'm inside my coffin [Hook: Joseph Kay] Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here [Verse 2: Jaytekz] Everyday is a burden for me So many regrets, it discourages me Like where would I be if I didn't drop out And I kept taking cla**es and grandma was proud? And where would I be if my father was here? And mom was with him and their love was sincere No f**ing divorce, no need for the courts Together forever, they fought through the storms They fought through it all Yeah, through the trials of love, they never quit But it's sad to say that that's not the case Cause they broke apart, that sh** makes me pissed Yo, f** Yo, f** Do I give up or do I stand on my feet? Do I give in to the hardships of life Living every single day as I die on my knees sh**, what should I do? What should I do? Do I hold on to this thing called life? Do I stay strong when there's tears in my eyes? Do I move on when I'm hurting inside? Where do I go? Where do I go? Under the ground when I'm finally at peace Away from the world, away from the sorrow and pain That's been hidden within me so deep [Hook: Joseph Kay] Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here Oh no, I don't know if I should be here, be here