(feat. Rock City) [Verse 1: Jarren Benton] God bless the dead I war with demons inside my head Now there is empty space here inside my bed That you missing from I went piling bread And I was scared of this rap sh** So everyday I would practice And our relationship would then fall apart Now it's over now sings the fat b**h And you was thinking about marriage And I was thinking about me And my sh** was so far from being together I was out here blind on these streets Trying to beast a rhyme over beats And these p**y n***as so weak And my city felt so lame then And I was stressed not getting much sleep And my mind was thinking so f**ed up I put hip hop before anything A lost king though I was finna reign But for you it's something I can not explain And I was fighting so much disbelief And these pills can bring much relief And I just wanted to be in them flashy lights With them shining chains and that mink Preach [Chorus: Jarren Benton] Yeah I've been on my grind Lately I've been losing my mind I pray that everything will be fine The sun don't always shine n***a know that I'm a get mine They tell me that it's all about timing b**h I was meant to be in them flashy lights And them shining chains and that fur coat and them diamonds Diamonds, fur coat and them diamonds Diamonds, fur coat and them diamonds [Verse 2: Jarren Benton] God bless the dead Back when [?] was by the feds And I was feeling so lost then My head was tripping over my regrets And you didn't even want to speak with me And I was feeling different frequency I started drinking more frequently And you would then loose belief in me And I was still chasing rap And you began hating that Cause you would bear all the burden And I wasn't there that's a fact And my dreams seemed so close to reach And there was I so wrong Cause when I realized all the hurt I caused I put a pistol to my dome Like f** it I ain't want to live life And everyday was looking so dark So much sacrifice on this flight I was fighting off all of my disbelief And this liquor bringing so much relief And I just wanted to be in them flashy lights With them shining rings and that mink Preach [Chorus: Jarren Benton] [Verse 3: Rock City] Who ever knew that this here would be my life, my life, my life, my life I've been to heaven back trying to live this life, this life, this life, this life That's why everyday I'm on my grind Getting to the top stay on my mind So I'm a get rich or die tryin' Giving my everything as if it ain't no tomorrow [Chorus: Jarren Benton]