Jacob Nash - Proof Of God lyrics

[verse 1] I should be too embarra**ed, but I think I'll just be honest I don't have a job or a car and I'm living with my parents I'm sick of all this: trying my best, but feeling worthless I'm feeling really hopeless, but I can't let myself become homeless So I'm determined to do whatever it takes to make myself into somebody I'm going to do my best to make music and find some fans for me I'm going to do whatever it takes to make myself into a rapper I'll never quit improving, even if I somehow become the best rapper ever I've got a lot of obstacles I have to overcome first though I'm probably too white to be a rapper or maybe that doesn't really matter All I know is that the majority of white rappers sound nerdy and corny I'm worried that I'm going to also, so I'll just do whatever I can to make sure I'm not boring But, even though I'm as white as they get, I've got bigger obstacles to overcome I struggle to find ambition to finish my songs, like this one And my allergies get so bad sometimes that I can't even rap So even when I have the ambition to rap, I sometimes still can't But my biggest problem out of them is that I'm from North Dakota When it comes to music here, rap isn't exactly the favorite genre Here, country gets played all day and rap only gets hate I don't think I can even name one other rapper from this state And there are other rappers that are slept upon that are probably more sk**ful Than me, so I'm praying, cause it's doubtful That I'll be able to make it without some kind of a miracle [hook] I'm from North Dakota. I'm far from a gangster I'm trying to be a rapper. It's a recipe for disaster If I make it, I'm proof of God. If I make it, I'm proof of God If I make it, I'm proof of God. If I make it, I'm proof of God I'm from North Dakota. I'm far from a gangster I'm trying to be a rapper. It's a recipe for disaster If I make it, I'm proof of God. If I make it, I'm proof of God If I make it, I'm proof of God. If I make it, I'm proof of God [verse 2] For anyone who doesn't believe in God, I believe that I'm proof Last year, I couldn't even rap. It's incredible how fast I've improved At first, I couldn't even rap a decent verse, but I've been praying all along It took me a whole month to make a track. Now, every week I've got a new song But I've still got a long ways to go before I become a professional People don't have any reason to listen to me, because I'm nothing special I'm no hero. All I really am is just another hobby rapper But if I keep improving like I have been, it would be long before I'm better It won't be long before I'm ready to take my rapping a step farther It won't be too long before I'm ready to make this into a career But sk** doesn't mean anything if I don't ever get noticed So I'm going to have to find some ways to get people to listen to this If I ever want to become famous or even just make it I'm going to need something more than just plenty of practice I need some kind of promotion or noone will even hear about me I'm going to need a label or at least somebody famous to support me Because if I don't have any fans, I'll never be able to make any money And I need money or else I'll always be homeless, broke, and hungry I need to sign to a label or something to make me into an actual rapper But I don't have any aspiration for fame, it's just an occupation I'm after The problem is I have no idea what I've been doing. I think I need a mentor But I hardly even know anyone who listens to rap and I haven't even met another rapper [hook] [verse 3] God, I feel like you want to be a rapper, but you've got to be crazy Because if anybody isn't supposed to be a rapper, it's got to be me But I know you actually know me even better than I do And nobody knows what's best for me as well as you do The only reason I'm trying to rap is because I feel like you want me to Because I don't think I could make a debut without help from you But you've got to be helping me, because I'm actually getting stuff done In fact, it's only takes me a few days to make an entire song Now, I've just got to keep proceeding, practicing, and persevering I've got to keep writing and rapping until I get the perfect recording I can't waste my time. I've got to always be busy working on something If I'm not writing or recording, I better be practicing to keep improving But even if I sing to a label, I'm not sure I'll be able to make it I'm afraid of crowds. They scare me to d**h and I hate it Twice, when I had to speak in front of a crowd, I almost fainted I have gotten older since then and maybe I've grown out of it But I'm not certain about that and I don't know if I want to risk it I'm hoping stage presence is overrated, so I don't need to perform to make it Because even if I don't pa** out, my nerves could get to me some other way I could stutter, forget the lyrics, or s** and get booed off the stage I'm probably too shy for this kind of a thing, but I'm hoping that I could change Or maybe I'll turn out to be okay and I won't actually have to change But when it comes down to it I'm just a white kid who doesn't really know what he's trying to do If I actually make it, there's some proof of God right there for you [hook]