Jack Antonoff - Changes lyrics

[Chorus: Jack Antonoff] Trying to be still I wanna believe in a love that wants me back I wanna believe that I can turn it around Wanna believe that these changes are changing me, chasing me to find my way out Try to not be small I wanna believe that someone never lets go I wanna believe that I can turn it around Wanna believe that these changes are changing me, chasing me to find my way out [Verse 1] Imma give it to you straight; No filter I could live a million lives, but it never k**ed her I was on the edge of dying, feeling unfulfilled I could cry 'til I'm blind, lose my will to live Forgot the point of trying when I woke up in a strange place Look up to the sky asking, "Why?" with a blank face How the world went grey So they kept me in a nut house Fork in the road and I had to take the hard route Screamin' bloody murder, was afraid I'd never get out Up against the wall 'til I had to let my guard down Clawing at the walls, reach the middle, then I fall down Try to call for help, but I couldn't make the call now Chemical imbalance is a challenge, lemme vent When the world is forcing you to steal just to pay the rent I'm erratic and I'm twisted, wanna fix it, where's the cure? Room is spinnin' while I'm sinnin', and I'm fallin' to the floor [Chorus: Jack Antonoff] Trying to be still I wanna believe in a love that wants me back I wanna believe that I can turn it around Wanna believe that these changes are changing me, chasing me to find my way out Try to not be small I wanna believe that someone never lets go I wanna believe that I can turn it around Wanna believe that these changes are changing me, chasing me to find my way out [Verse 2] Getting up in front of millions is a contrast With the slime and grime, on my money, making hard pa** "Live fast, die young," was the motto I was taking off my clothes to pay the rent, like I gotta All the dudes and dudes they making moves to prove That when they win you lose and they can buy these fools They was lookin' at the p**y with a price tag Touch me how they want for the money in the dufflebag Uncrumpling the ones wasn't worth it Family won't talk to me, they wish that I was perfect Out on the street and I felt defeated I was livin' out my car, it was hardly heated Got scars on my heart and it's barely beatin' Was a hell and I couldn't find the help I needed I'm erratic and I'm twisted, wanna fix it, where's the cure? Room is spinnin' while I'm sinnin', and I'm fallin' to the floor [Chorus: Jack Antonoff] Trying to be still I wanna believe in a love that wants me back I wanna believe that I can turn it around Wanna believe that these changes are changing me, chasing me to find my way out Try to not be small I wanna believe that someone never lets go I wanna believe that I can turn it around Wanna believe that these changes are changing me, chasing me to find my way out