Jabez Z - Broken lyrics

I'm straight broken. choking on my feelings Theatre keeps me going, but nothing gives me healing I know god lives if he's up there he should help me out I've done all i could all i want to do is scream and shout Punching all the walls until my knuckles bleed Disrespecting my parents every time that i speak If this is how it goes, if this is how it be Then the pain i feel is real, the devil is inside of me! Friends being fake, the truth is being told This bad self esteem is really getting old I want to succeed and follow my dreams The path looks bright, but nothing's ever as it seems What i believe is, everything i touch falls apart at the seams I'm trying to be the best that i can be It's really hard when hate makes you change your mind It's hard to find true love when i see that it's all a lie Nothing is clear to me. maybe i should go I've shown everybody here all i've ever known All that i've known is shown in the way that i have grown Actions speak louder than words, that's how it goes Cause I'm straight broken. choking on my feelings Theatre keeps me going, but nothing gives me healing I know god lives if he's up there he should help me out I've done all i could all i want to do is scream and shout. (x2) Why is responsibility given when all the work i put in is given in participation ribbons? Roof over my head and food on the table Grandfather working hard so we can afford cable Works 8 to 5, comes home and relaxes He sees a giant bill says, "how could this happen?" Goes to his computer and completes the transaction Comes back to relax like nothing ever happened Gas and water bill so high! This is how we treat him for working 8 to 5?! We're not even grateful for how hard that he tries It's like all his work is given in disguise Bullies at school saying magic is lame Maybe i should just quit if i can't entertain All you females you need to stop playing games Guys try to pursue but all you give them is pain Cause I'm straight broken. choking on my feelings Theatre keeps me going, but nothing gives me healing I know god live if he's up there he should help me out I've done all i could all i want to do is scream and shout.(x2) Ahhhh! Why does everything i do have to be bad!? All it does is make me really mad! I want to do better, show my family that i can do it The choice was up to me, and as it turns out, i blew it I tried to do it, but the real truth is... I hate myself to much, i don't believe that i can do it You got to believe in yourself I'm straight broken. choking on my feelings Theatre keeps me going, but nothing gives me healing I know god lives if he's up there he should help me out I've done all i could all i want to do is scream and shout. (x2)