Ja Rule - Pain Is Love lyrics

[Chorus: Ja Rule] Love don't love me Is the only thing that seems to hold me God can you explain why Love don't love me Is the only thing that seems to hold me God can you explain why [Ja Rule] I sit alone in my four cornered room staring at candles Gettin hot tryin to handle, this hand that's been dealt to me I don't need, especially in this world overwhelmed with greed See we cut from a different tree Y'all n***az hope and I wish a n***a would f** with INC Went through the troubles and the struggle of hustlin and runnin (what) So the ones that come behind don't' run through nothin They would fear no man but God and do a lot of frontin And I'm here to tell the world that pain is lovin' Like when I die I hope it rains Cuz if it does, that mean the lord shared them n***az pain Here lie our man slain And I would get out the game if I could But I promised all my life to my kids I'd make good Can't stand my father and love my momma STILL I TRY, God can you explain why [Chorus] [Ja Rule] I live my life under pistol, cuz lately love ain't been a issue With who's gone miss you, when you dead and gone Will my name live on? Or will I be the last to die and breathe and eat Cuz I need a little love and affection and baby I live like every day was my last one Dang, I've been living my life... (haha, yea) Like I'm a leave this world unmarked, smiles combed to horror For all them days when it rains And it feels like thangs ain't gettin no better for me Nobody loves me, sometimes I wish God could come down and hug me And wipe the tears from eyes Cuz in my heart I know only the strong survive And I die for my family, so they can live a better life I try, God can you explain why [Chorus] [Ja Rule] I'll sacrifice my life, f** all the dumb sh** Cuz being black and broke's gettin redundant My grow to be a world leader like X and King If I can live a longer than Pac and BIG What do (?) n***az run red, you could tell by the lives we live If it changes it'll be God's prediction, so pain inflicted, like Jane's Addiction Live right like Christians, but dance with the d**h It's like callin' stones a devil, the road is unlevel Still I walk through the valleys of shadows of d**h gasping for air Breathe in my last breath My daughter told me first words, my son walked his first steps And all through life we anticipate d**h And if pain is truly love, for my family I DIE, God can you explain why [Chorus]