J1K - Backstabbing Love lyrics

Intro: "Look at me, Im in love" Verse 1: "I was seventeen when I first thought I was in love Addicted to her hugs, like an addict to his d** I remember getting high off her kisses at night It's like I was living in darkness but she showed me the light Life was good but it went to hell when we started to fight I didn't wanna take advice, I wanted to take my life Once I tried to jump out of my momma's car while she was driving Doing d**, talking to God, like how am I surviving? Addicted to the d** that the streets were prescribing Now im back in my dark world, afraid to let the light in Drugs and pipes, random s*uts every night I saw no love cause my heart had a blind man's sight Momma stuck inside a church praying to God for my life A few months pa**ed, then I met my future wife The girl of my dreams, love of my life, my best friend The same girl who left me and I never seen again Til about a year later, when I seen her with another man Pregnant with a baby, while Im stuck alone without a plan Kinda depressed, so I built some walls around me Then I cuddled in my corner, til the next girl found me How can I trust myself if my inner self doubts me It's hard to spot the sun, when the skies are always cloudy So she left without me, now im back at square one Both eyes open staring at the barrel of my gun." Hook: "Look at me, Im in love" x4 Verse 2: "I had a f**in sickness, and felt like s** was my medicine No more girlfriends, just fine friends with benefits Got drunk, did d**, and f**ed them for the hell of it Even when they were heaven sent, I made them act devilish Turned angels to demons, spent my nights feeling lonely Laying on my bed, wishing somebody would come and hold me And tell me that they love me, and other nice things Looking at my finger, picturing it with a ring It's like im living in a dream, and I ain't trying to wake up Im happy, but sometimes I miss being in love Having that person you can hug, kick back and watch a movie with Im tired of hood rats, Im tired of all this groupie sh** Last week I kicked it with some chick and I was interested She said she loves the way I think, we kissed and got intimate She went to the bathroom, so I went on Facebook for a little bit And her status said, OMG guess who Im chillin with? Then she asked me for a picture and a poster So I signed it sorry baby, I like you but it's over No one to talk to, women just want the fame And they think Im famous cause a couple kids know my name But you don't know my pain, and go tell love that I miss her And tell her that Im sorry for all the times that I dissed her And that I wish her the best, in case I never see her again Cause love was nothing but a backstabbing friend." Hook: "Look at me, Im in love" x8