J Trauma - Under lyrics

[Verse] Livin life like a zombie, all these d** be up on me Got no names on my sweatshirts, b**h f** Abercrombie Got no cash in my pockets, blame the blood in my sockets Suicide on my mind, I grab the 9 then I co*k it Nothin but a recluse, my last resort is this noose I can't lie outta sh**, they see through every excuse So I go back to my room, write and sleep it all off These haters waitin on the day that I f**in fall off Mane I gotta keep rappin, truly my only pa**ion Maybe make somethin happen, maybe see some lights flashin Don't really care for the fashion, I need some dough then I'm set Kick start myself a career, and help my momma with rent If you think I'm nearly done, well I'm only just startin Yet I still can't believe I've taken a f**in part in This sh** we know as a game, to some it's competiton And to others it's their way of life, to some it's just the b**hes And I'm gettin so high, my surroundings be lookin like glitches And I need some f**in money, tryna go from rags to riches My pants ripped like ASAP, these b**hes can't phase that, they always scream J Trauma but you never hear them play that You look at me and smirk, you glare at me and laugh But I don't care, I just wanna make some music and smoke some hash I'm just tryna get this paper, bruh, I'm tryna make it fast If I can't support myself, then who knows how long I'll last? To be honest with you and myself, I'll never make it f** it, I'm just a kid who's not a legend in the makin And my sh** is mediocre, and it's far from amazin I'm just hopin that one day it leaves some jitts in amazement [Hook 2x] Tryna get above the ground, but I'm trapped under Beggin for them sunny days but all I get is thunder Tryna fall asleep but lightning strikes disturb my slumber I got a little tipsy but I'm tryna get drunker