J. Tess - Invitation lyrics

[Intro: Aha Gazelle, O. Nicole and J. Tess] You're not for real, you're just playing I don't believe a word you're saying Who you think you fooling? What you think you're doing? What you really working for? You not really one of us It's you you're really hurting What's really your purpose? What you really living for? Don't you wanna be one of us? I know you must be afraid What's after the grave Do you know what you've been searching for? Who you really working for? I know you must be scared Feel like nothing's there What you really living for? Don't you wanna be one of us? [Verse 1: Aha Gazelle] I'm so fresh up on it Me and my clique like a metronome is Pride on top like tetesteroni Ain't cool when you fall like November for homeless But that's none of my business I'mma sip this soda Wait, I don't drink soda If my pee stay yellow it's 'cause my kidneys are golden Prolly too optimistic But that's the only part that I can see like Moses Sitting in my bedroom watching anime Have you ever seen a party where they playing patty cake? I can eat the patty cake and throw it up all in your face And disregard the fact that I don't care what mom and daddy say The stuff I think about is deeper than a twenty foot vase With an old man inside sitting down playing ba** When he hits the notes right he makes the place vibrate He doesn't wanna leave he likes the way it feels when he plays I know a chick name Myrtle Her favourite colour purple She told me God hates her cause he didn't make her fertile She used to always say she understands that she's not perfect But she's still a sweet girl why do people just desert her? Know a chick named Mariah She always wore designer Don't ask her how she got it cause she don't need a reminder But when it come to church I guarantee you never find her 'Cause she felt she wasn't worth it and that made her suicidal Knew a girl named Anita Always getting misdemeanours Said she's sick of always dealing with these crooked hearted people Anyone who ever knew her knew she really wasn't evil But the only guy she ever loved was on d** and beat her Had a bad one named Sarah Used to love laughter She only believed in God cause her daddy was a pastor Insecure as a clown with way too much mascara And I really felt bad cause she really was attractive Kid named William Alone in the building Never felt he did belong with all the other children He thought he had some friends but he always had suspicions Anytime he played the field he would always get bitten But he still cared about the way that they were living Felt that they would perish if they didn't see his vision Conversations with the crickets cause they guaranteed they'd listen [Aha Gazelle] I know you must be afraid What's after the grave Do you know what you've been searching for? Who you really working for? I know you must be scared Feel like nothing's there What you really living for? Don't you wanna be one of us? [Interlude: Aha Gazelle] Whoever's still listening to this Y'all, y'all my best friends straight up [Aha Gazelle] This a song that I'll prolly never perform live, no This a song that I'll prolly never perform live This a song that I'll prolly never perform live 'Cause I'd be embarra**ed by the look I see in your eyes But at you least you'll understand that I never wore a disguise So you can't say you were surprised [Verse 2: Aha Gazelle] First of all, forget anyone who thinks that they know me The old me died some years ago with super swag ENT When it was TrillWill, Hatak**a, TJ and Dee Before TJ got on Instagram and called my momma a B They say that people change in college so they can be apart I don't think they really change they just become who they really are Ain't not Mom and Dad to regulate everything you do Ain't gone make you go to church, God gotta be real to you And honestly there's not a single thing that's really wrong with that It's all a part of growing up and there's never really going back 'Cause you and I both know it's something's that our folks will never get There scared because they know it too our generations are way too gapped I'm working on staying respectful when receiving advice that's not really helpful You got your masters degree, okay well that's really not special You working for another person who prolly ain't never met you It's room full of iPhones and you showed up with a pencil But let me shut up my mouth is always gon' get me in trouble I'm always speaking out loud I used to get spanked when I mumbled Be careful who you call slow, just know that tortoise is coming I'm being humble and lying, it's way too wild in this jungle Thank you for listening, I appreciate you bumping this But Greenbeans is still the best project that I ever did If you disagree then you probably gon' follow all the trends Give it five years or so and everything gon' make sense All I did was give 'em what they wanted to hear I got 'em hollering Free Barabbas, know my message is clear But I'm still TeamGMG for my day ones that was with me And still remember when my dreadlocks wasn't even touching my ears And my goal was never to get a bunch of people to follow me I know a lot of people only waiting for the lottery You never really understood you ain't gotta lie to me I'm done tryna show my vision to people who ain't tryna see [Aha Gazelle] I'm screaming this a song that I'll prolly never perform live Oh my God This a song that I'll prolly never perform live, no This a song that I'll prolly never perform live, 'cause I'd be embarra**ed by the look I see in your eyes But at you least you'll understand that I never wore a disguise So you can't say you were surprised [Verse 3: Aha Gazelle] Uno number one I guess I'm tryna be the best ever The thoughts I think are too clever I'm lying, I ain't nothing special 'Cause honestly I'm more self-conscious Than a freshman in college Who spends her money on clothes and shoes Hoping she gets acknowledged By an upper cla** man who's only with her for the pounding Then he graduates and separates as he makes the announcement She begins to cry then finds another guy she thinks is solid But he's only with her 'cause well you know he heard about her So he plays his part well, buys her roses and the violets And all the a**orted chocolates then he makes his deposit When it's time for withdrawal he be moving with the silence He didn't even save her number and his Instagram was private So now she in her dorm room with the weeping and the crying Only to be consoled by her roommate named Maya Maya said she should pledge something to reignite her fire So to keep it on the low so they don't know she keeps it quiet So a few months later she crosses feeling enlightened But inside she still knows them letters can't cover her mileage But ignores the knowledge cause an athlete wanna try her The never ending repetition of the same old cycle Oh my God [Aha Gazelle] This a song that I'll prolly never perform live, no, no, no, no, no This a song that I'll prolly never perform live, uh [Verse 4: Aha Gazelle] Rapper or a politician, I should've thought twice 'Cause I gotta shake hands and smile with people I really don't like And I'm tryna rea**ure myself inside like it'll be alright It's only been some months how could y'all be fake ya whole life And I finally realized I'm not a Christian rapper That was just a title that was made up to keep some people happy Cause I can walk the walk and talk like this to please the chatty pattys But I still like to use slang, wear gold, and my hair is nappy I'm still gon' clap on two and four I'm still gon' boogie through the door I'm still gon' watch the way I walk so my jays don't crease up at the toes I'm still gon' put on all this gold I'm still gon' let you know I'm cold I'm still gon' stunt in all my pictures And I'm still gon' stop and strike a pose You shouldn't have to change what God made Just to go to a church I understand we're not the same But bruh, that ain't how it works 'Cause we can read the Bible Word for word and quote every verse But if we don't apply it in real life Then tell me what was it worth But I'mma transfer from a Baptist church I'mma need all my credits White out the dark blemishes Hoping that I can still get accepted Reject my brothers and my sisters And act like I never met 'em Just to be with Martha, Kate, Tanner, Jason, and Rebecca [Aha Gazelle] Oh my God This a song that I'll prolly never ever, never ever, never ever perform live No, no, no, no I'm so tired, so tired [Verse 5: Aha Gazelle] No surprises if I told you I'd do it, I did it This ain't a hobby I caught the body and got rid of the witness No condemnation for those who in Jesus I'm ignoring my flesh Recognizing the importance of my spirit I'm starting to get it And people taking shots with a flat ball They need to pick a side I'm sick of seeing all these cat dogs Lurking into my private life They lookin' for a case to solve But I guess they weren't big enough Like a keyboard with the caps off And as long people judge me They gon' always get the facts wrong And I'll beat every charge like a product with the tax off And won't nobody say it But they think I should wipe my black off Don't have the spine to say it to my face I suggest that you back off I need to chill I joke when I say things have been going real swell This murder was premeditated if you still can't tell Everything was planned and prayed for I sat back as time fell More patience then a waiter with two plates and a silver barbell A co-worker said, "Why you at this store if you got your degree?" I looked at her and said, "Well that's only some insurance to me I only got one 'cause stats say that a black man can't But it has nothing to do with will or whether or not I'll succeed" 'Cause I refuse to work Monday through Friday 8-5 in the evening Where the only thing I look forward to is being off on the weekends All in hopes to be promoted just to sit in longer meetings And then retire and sit at home all day while I'm waiting on Jesus You can call me stupid but Gazelle is not gon' do it It's not my fault that God decided to make me better at music I'll never forget when my boss said, "Oh you one of them dreamers" And for a split second I thought that what I was doing was foolish But then I snap back like, "Boy you tripping, what is you doing?" The hardest thing about growing is that you can't feel the movement I've been alone in this theatre for about six years And they still look at me confused while I'm describing this movie But anyways switching the subject to me and my feelings I've been having a problem separating Aha from William Hiding from the problem not knowing that the burden is me It's just that Aha the version of me that I always wanted to be He wears all black with Jordan's and gold chains and gold teeth When all the cameras are all watching he just takes over the beat He always knows what to say and he's not afraid when he speaks But when it all goes away he just transforms back to me Door closed, lights off, sitting on top of the rug Hands dirty from everything that we done got from the mud Most of it was never needed but it was done just because He's in my head laughing like, "Ha ha ha boy they loving the thug" And I laugh to myself as I look up above This a song without a hook the whole time I was the drug I tried to shake God's hand and he gave me a hug Then He whispered in my ear it's all luh Aha I'm sorry, I'm sorry [Outro: Aha Gazelle] I learned you gotta watch who you kick it with I learned you gotta watch who you kick it with People say they real but they counterfeit People say they real but they counterfeit Jesus is who I'm rocking with Jesus is who I'm rocking with And I'm not ashamed to tell nobody I'mma treat her like a queen Even if she wanna be a Even if she wanna be a Even if she wanna be a Even if she wanna be a Even if she wanna be a Even if she wanna be a Even if she wanna be a Even if she wanna be a thot Sitting in my bedroom, talking to the mirror Don't call me crazy, I know that I can hear Him He said, "Why you change, what happened to your spirit?" What happened to you? You used to be a real one" You ain't gotta want me, you ain't gotta want me, 'cause they want me You ain't gotta need me, you ain't gotta need me, they need me You ain't gotta love me, you ain't gotta love me, they love me You ain't gotta want me, you ain't gotta want me, 'cause they want me You ain't gotta need me, you ain't gotta need me, they need me You ain't gotta love me, you ain't gotta love me, they love me