J. Rod (Rapper) - First To Leave lyrics

[Verse 1: J.Rod] It's hard, it's hard, just stick to the beat I'm woken up by your melodies I know it's hard but I gotta believe I gotta find that good in me You're a face in the crowd, you're staring me down But you're gone, when I turn around I know you hear the lies I shout I know that I, I let you down But there you were, It's more than I deserve I wish you could still hear these words Now the crowd thins out and I sit alone All alone knowing you were the first [Chorus: Kirin Dombek] If I lost myself does that make me a loser If I start from scratch does that mean I'm newer I'm a loser but I'm newer looking towards the future Deading the worst of me but you're the first to leave [Verse 2: J.Rod] It's hard, it's hard just hit the notes I know it's hard just to let it go When the rhythms I wrote just strengthen your hold And seem to show how lil I've grown All on the stage, showing off my pain You turn to leave, I know you wanna stay I'm too lost to change, I can't find my way But you know, I'll be okay That's why you came just to hear this I hope the earth shakes with these words I spit Now the crowd thins out and you sit alone All alone knowing you were the first [Chorus: Kirin Dombek] If I lost myself does that make me a loser If I start from scratch does that mean I'm newer I'm a loser but I'm newer looking towards the future Deading the worst of me but you're the first to leave [Bridge: J.Rod] Go on home, go on home, go your way Run away, run away, from your pain Go on home, go on home, go your way Run away, run away, from your pain I'll be fine, I'm alright, I'm okay I'm alone, how'd you find me anyway I'll be fine, I'm alright, I'm okay I'm alone, how'd you find me anyway [Verse 3: J.Rod] When the crowd thins out when the all go home When I stand on stage staring down a fallen Rome When it's time to clean up when it's time to let go Can I beat back the tears when I'm standing all alone Am I pathetic to be apologetic should I just forget it Yeah, I get it I said it it was my decision to dead it But to just accept it is a true ending No hope to reconnect it as these double time rhymes lose their direction I remember my place as the lights turn off on stage Off in my room as I sleep and forget to pray Lose the last absolution that remains Father, forgive me, I know well why I stray Maybe you're right, you shouldn't trust me this time But when you hear these lines, give the thought some time Like I gave you so much in my life First to leave, just the same you were the first in line