J Reyez - Smile Through It All lyrics

(verse 1) Although it's tough, when growing up I was a pretty normal kid I'm old enough to realize that my family had more to give We couldn't afford a lot but I kept on ignoring it And would I make it? my basement is where I'm recording in I'm depending on a dream and if I'd ever score it big They believe on what it seems but I ain't even close to it I'm focusing on what I do, not caring if they notice it I'm composing my life story, all the highs and lows in it My family was doing good, I'm riding bikes around the block But coming home to mom and dad and the fighting never stopped And it already begun, my father was getting drunk Breaking things around the house, telling my mom to pick it up I would be laying on my bed, hearing the yelling through the walls It was small in the beginning now I couldn't take it at all And I'm preparing to fall and why is this happening? Drastically, actually this life was after me (Chorus) I just wanna live a life with no stress Success is just a mile away, I look for better days Even if they hate you, just gotta smile through it all Just be grateful, you just gotta smile through it all I'm doing well so thanks for your help I do it for myself for nobody else And I owe to myself, I just gotta smile through it all Just smile through it all, just smile through it all (verse 2) It was clear, It's been a couple of years since it has been this way I look away but it was the same thing, different day Little things got me in trouble and I would get it bad And I hated you and I ain't sorry, just forget it dad And it's sad having a kid who doesn't like you Dad I would never wanna be just like you You'd beat me with whatever that you can find And with mom, the people knew, it's nothing that you could hide I was only 13 and I would come home a little late Try to hurt me now, I grew up and I was in your face Looking in your eyes, I decided to take a stand Damn you were surprised, that's when I became a man You told me to try to hit you and I punched you in your mouth And I was out, packed my things and I was running out the house On my own, I thank mom for being my backbone I was gone for a month, you wanted me back home but I'm gone (bridge) Just smile through it all Even if they hate you Look, ain't nobody can replace you Just smile through it all Yeah they can be fake too You got your life, just be grateful Just smile through it all Even if they hate you What they say can't break you Just smile through it all Just be grateful Just smile through it all Just smile through it all (verse 3) You and mom gotta divorce, I was happy hearing the news I didn't know a lot before, now I'm fearing the truth The last day before you went, you came and cried to me And I didn't pay no mind when you said goodbye to me The whole family left you, I wanted to forget you Now I feel a guilt in my stomach and I'm regretful I stopped following rules, I dropped right outta school Hanging with the wrong crowd, I thought that I was cool And when I was 17, I just gave up, I couldn't do it Life was f*cked up and my music would help me through it Truth is, I miss the family we once had When we supported eachother, something I want back And it's been 5 years since you were once here I wanted to make it clear, your voice I wanna hear I would look at your number and pick the phone up I wanted to let you know, your son has grown up (verse 4) It's kinda f*cked up, having your whole family leave you We all make mistakes, the same for all people And I was always aware of my surroundings Always getting grounded, didn't care cuz I was childish I went through the same, I feel the pain cuz you were labelled You still played a role putting the food on the table After you left, it was hard to be stable And the man I am now, I admit that I don't hate you dad To be honest if you were here, I would take you back And I hate the fact that I made mom pick a side Forget the pride, sick inside, I ain't proud of what I done The fam was pretty good but I was stupid and I f*cked it up This song I wrote is something for me to show I'm a man now cuz you weren't there to see me grow Something you didn't know and I'm letting out my story Cuz I f*cked everything up and I regret it and I'm sorry dad