J Mascis - Unwanted Number lyrics

You should hear the things that they say about me They're saying "she's no better than she needed to be" They don't know that he was kind and strong and tender And now I'll never be another unwanted number Unwanted number How can I tell them? How can I express? How it felt to step out of this life and into his embrace How can I tell them? How can I explain? All the love that I never had I found in him There may be a stain on the family name And if my father was here I think I know who he'd blame Mama says that he just doesn't care to remember And all he thinks of me is another unwanted number Unwanted number (how can I tell her? How can I express? How it felt when he came to my room And helped me to undress What can she tell me? How can I believe That she really didn't hear me cry When he wouldn't leave? ) There's a local game where they whisper my shame They say "he gave her his child He wouldn't give her his name" They will torture me from january till september And soon there's going to be another unwanted number Unwanted number Unwanted number And I will give my love to another unwanted number Unwanted number Unwanted number