J Lee - EXIZTANCE lyrics

(GRAMZ) VERSE 1 I only exist in my own inexistance ,for instincse I sit in my room alone, jus weed insence ,...... Relentless----ly Wat could this be,,,, it swallows me into a sea that you can't see,,unless you lonely as me You see i gotta whole lotta friends , but most aqaintense's ,,cause in all reality they all turned out jus fake as sh** Yea this a blaitent spit,,,but know im usually not ,,,cause what i really wanna say inside it hides until it rots So f** it ill give it a shot,,,, to change my life that is,,,, Cause if i dont ima hit that sloap an end up wit some kids I can't make no promise's ,,,, i can't make no aligation's Cause for all i know my goals could up an be knocked down by satan Im waitin.......wat more can he take,,wats left at stake,,,,, I feel like emptyin dyin lake,,,,surrounded by lyin venumious snakes In wich they lie right in front of my face,,,, in wich at that i can't relate So much sh** goin on right now i feel im bound to dissipate (CHORUS) (2x) Who an where am i that is the question These very questions are the reason that im stressing I always ask an my answers always relentless...i only exist in my own in-existence (GRAMZ)VERSE 2 At the end of my rope ,, at the end of my mind,, losing myself wit everyday that goes by Callin out for help but still i get no reply,, no where left to turn ,so why bother try Why bother lie , when im starrinG at the truth,, it looks my in my EYES n***a tell me wats the use more like excuse More like excuses, keep telling my self that i am sain but the truth is ...im not To be honsest ima twisted individual thats gotta dark side thats only tamed by medisinal Keep from gettin phisical,,,,hands always in my pockets,,,,cause inside i got tendencys to k** an i jus can't stop it NO!!!! no!!!! Every time i try ,,, i end up,,,,here again ,,,high an writin wierd again...cuz lately all my fear is thin Latley i can hear the sin speacialy in this instance ,,,,,so for now i only exist in my own in-existence