J Frosty - Stressin' lyrics

Aye yo I'm all stressed out I'm just sittin here My thoughts all of doubt I'm all insecure Confidence I'm without I'm livin in fear That my dreams won't turnout And the future's unclear I don't know the route Or if i should go far or near I'm tryna bail myself out Out of this jail of drear I want to black out And just disappear From my life of the now, of the there and the here My whole life Ive always strived to be great But false dreams and false hopes are what I hate If I underperform I just frustrate My mind becomes a storm and I just deflate I'll get so heated and warm I become irate When Im not at my norm I just devastate I can't try reform I just aggravate I've tried to conform but I'm just in such a bad state Every single day e been workin so dam hard And I don't have any disregards Yet this fear I can't seem to discard I can't stop worrying about being barred From a life one would regard As having played all the right cards I'm just tryna to escape this junkyard I call my life, all marred and scarred I wonder it'll be like decades from now What I'll be doin, where I'll be and how I got there, if I was able to disavow These fears that force me to bow Down to them, it makes me condemn How I can't think straight and I'm just coughing up phlegm I can't tell the diff between am and pm But I can tell life is no gem it's just mayhem I've been worryin every day Who I'll be, what I'll say If I will leave or if I'll stay Who I'll grow to be along the way All the time I stop to pray That I won't get pushed away Or become led astray And that my life will be a-ok People have all these expectations of me Some of them legit but some just crazy How am I supposed to be carefree When everyone expects me to be Bourgeoisie Being at a cla** higher than everybody Would be super cool totally But, unfortunately it's not reality Just think of this an*logy that life is a tree One that stretches up indefinitely Higher than any eye can see And when you climb up high there's more guarantee That you'll attain success and everlasting glee And hopefully it'll make me great maybe Climbing this tree that determines destiny But for sure its not at all easy Its costly and it's doesn't come free This climb that is life is a dangerous one It's full of ups and down and it can be no fun It's hard to reach the top and be number one It can seem impossible like it can't be done I mean I guess it's diff for me cuz I've just begun I don't know for sure I haven't really been around a ton But I've still become scared of what's goin un And I just wanna take off and run I've been worryin every day Who I'll be, what I'll say If I will leave or if I'll stay Who I'll grow to be along the way All the time I stop to pray That I won't get pushed away Or become led astray And that my life will end up ok I've been worryin every day Who I'll be, what I'll say If I will leave or if I'll stay Who I'll grow to be along the way All the time I stop to pray That I won't get pushed away Or become led astray And that my life will end up ok But look the point of this song is not to beg and plea To somehow make life easier for me I'm not here to ask for pity And for sure I won't back down and flee This is just what I've thought about kind of a lot If it'll be enough the stuff I got I'm tryna fend off this onslaught Of all you gotta do to succeed and whatnot My whole life I've been told I'll never be enough They've always said life is just too rough Making it in the world is just too tough So I should just settle for less and all that stuff This is why I've been in all this stress I'm worried my life will be just end up bein a mess But these insecure thoughts I need to address And I mean If I just do things right it won't be too bad I guess I've been worryin every day Who I'll be, what I'll say If I will leave or if I'll stay Who I'll grow to be along the way All the time I stop to pray That I won't get pushed away Or become led astray And that my life will be a-ok I've been worryin every day Who I'll be, what I'll say If I will leave or if I'll stay Who I'll grow to be along the way All the time I stop to pray That I won't get pushed away Or become led astray And that my life will be a-ok