J.C.J - Lost In Boston lyrics

[Verse 1 JCJ] Feeling aganoy like kevin ware Its way more than a slight tare So much pain and discomfort Athlete turned rapper like shumpert See a girl and I dump her Pay attention be alert Flip the script so you feel the hurt Your nothing your complete dirt Alternative you play with perks Your messed up while im doing work Don't worry man I got all the perks Talking good sh** not bad Dug myself out and im glad Plenty of things I missed out on coulda had Don't matter now in my ma**ive bachelor pad Missing the glory days of playing catch with dad Pure innonce how little kids are Loved those late nights counting every last star This rap isn't even dedicated to the bar Don't even care about being faded Doing some sober thinkin has me concentrated Know this is so far belated Ain't talking about drinking Don't mistake this ship is never sinking Minds been messed up the past few years Think I recall the past couple new years Spent so many nights wipping away all the tears Poundering what I've become Wtf have I done wtf have I done Wrecking my life im so young New time in my life has begun Past demons have caught me Can't run I give in they have won Its rare that I admit defeat This way of living has me beat Burden so heavy lost my feet I'm worn out No matter what don't doubt Listen up im too tired to shout Excellent sensational f** wat your doing recreational Quality of my work is outstanding Got fans linedup outside standing Got all the people demaning Respect im commanding Nows not the time to be withstanding As I move up people try to bring me down One day I won't be around not to be so profound But people don't appericate the good sound Nothing I can do there all a** clowns Didn't even receive there gap and gown Didn't get to walk in graduation Call it no participation Have all the credentials Breaking it down to the fundementals Normally don't get so sentimental Ain't bullsh**ing about potential Its now or never Im in this sh** forever Unfortantley we can't all go together Some have to hang there hopes and dreams up like a sweather People close to my age been dying at a high rate How can you waste time with all this hate When good people don't even have a heart rate Over dosing car accidents and cancer Why they had to go soon theres no answer Can't help to reflect put my life on pause Don't care if I don't get a round of applause Not doinf this for me doing it for a greater cause Like the people running the marathon Parents had no clue there kids would be gone Prayers and thoughts go out to boston Criminals see evil there lost in Don't give a f** who there costing Who in their right mind would set those bombs off in boston Think about this and whats important That's my advise so go use it See a fire of problems don't infuse it I can't deal with this sh** I swear I'm gon lose it Say you can beat me so prove it Talking behind my back no facial interaction No wonder when I call you go out I get no reaction Your so f**ing scared you won't take any action Seeing you act like a b**h gives me all the satisfaction Dividing all my profits but you never get a fraction b*tch