Jewlz - Confessions lyrics

have you ever felt so alone in a room full of people that just admire you? it's overwhelming to see the people all lie to you i s** it up for the fact that i have to keep it movin' and for my reasons happiness ain't why i pursue it i sit alone in my bedroom and wonder what i'm doin' i think about the fans i'm gaining but the friends i'm losin' i push away the people tryna get close to me and try to reel in all the people who don't even know me i have issues with trust can someone please show me? how to do it the right way i'm f**in' lonely never forget none of the words that she ever told me why everybody wanna hug me but nobody holds me? i've lost a part of me to someone that i used to hate it reminds me of the music that we used to make ironically i ended up not even bothered by it happiness was really close it was just hard to find it yeah and to the girl that was a part of me thank you for everything but it's time you grew a part from me i thought that everything we've ever been through would help you understand but none of it don't mean sh** to you for that i bid you adieu just remember all our sh** together i been through it too maybe life isn't as bad as it seems cause a nightmare eventually turns into a dream in this rap game there's only one policy aim for the stars and i never took astrology accept no apology so much stress on top of me don't care bout what you do with them just please get it far from me since i was a kid i seen my own d**h no stress lost in an alley see my own breath mentally i'm lost in my heart i'm feelin' hopeless see my murderer just getting closer with the process after everything i've learned what i thought was spittin' fire i ended up getting burned this music would cause me drama and sh** that i didn't need i'm starin' into the mirror and i don't know what i see confusion is a step into depression you know it when you even start to question your reflection i would desire attention and for affection until i say my confessions i'll never see my progression you talk a lot but i don't understand your sentence so i don't follow you even if you try to mention my name you would keep it in your conversations if we're really a team where is the cooperation? i live in obama's nation people laughin' at me cause i'm an obamanation no longer racin' for people who aren't chasin' their dreams cause a nightmare is only what they're facin' been betrayed so many times i'm not a quitter cause revenge is only sweet if they betrayal tasted bitter f** 'em all none of 'em are friends to me an old friend still can turn into your newest enemy what the f** you tellin' me? i ain't even listenin' the truth hurts it can leave the human heart cripplin' the fact you was a long time friend told me what you're tryna start i should really try to end but to be honest you was a part of my game to show me what i tell you what you tell her is it the same? i'm paranoid of the people i even trust now used to give a f** but i don't give a f** now i never take my eyes off a ba*tard cause everyone will stab you only if you're facing backwards and 2 people i know they're the best wit it i'll take the knife out of my back stab ya chest wit it cause i don't need to betray you if i don't like you you should worry bout what i'm doin' not what i might do my trust is something easily abused cause it's hard to gain and very easy to lose but your betrayal's not what i predicted they told me stay away from you but i had resisted a natural emotion lasts only 12 minutes so that means that my depression is mostly self-inflicted after 12 minutes how you feel is what you wanna feel depression is my happiness i just try to keep it real i go to sleep every night cryin' my eyes out wondering when the f** all the pain will ever die out the eyes are the windows to the soul so i always make sure that i keep my blinds closed if i should really die i'll be lookin' down from heaven watchin' my funeral just to see who'd really cry i'm glad y'all can witness greatness before the final stages life is a book i'm too scared to turn the pages a dream is a wish that your heart makes and a nightmare's the evil when your heart breaks been walkin' for too long in this dark place and i never win whenever i feel my heart always ended last in the hearts of many but my music landed great in the hearts of plenty lord tell me all this pain that you send me lemme know if all of my struggles will really help me in the future i been abused to the point that i don't know where is my sanity i'm after peace i treat all of my lyrics like a masterpiece it's sad to see somebody mad as me walkin' around livin' a life i should be grateful for i look at life and say "it's them on why i hate you for!!!" the demons in my dreams are chasin' after me they follow me when i wake up i see 'em in reality they ask me if i'm okay i really don't want your condolence i'm acting like i'm okay don't interrupt my performance