Isoindiv - I'm Sick lyrics

[Verse 1] Try and get in my mind, we're not the same cause everyone's different Dad's boozin' it, so I'm losin' it, I'm sick of this, sh**s persistent On a daily, basis, I feel like I'm a waste of a life, so by the end of the night I grab my pipe and hit that sh** 'till I'm feelin' alright, but that's the past So now when I'm offered I gotta pa**, I gotta deal with this pain by myself with a little bit of God's help well, I ask For forgiveness, even though I know I'm not worthy, I don't wanna leave earth early, I wanna live life purely, not dirty, so surely So, I don't have to have my expressions questioned every second of the day Whether I'm, happy or sad either way I'm learnin lessons on the way Cause I've brought sunshine in my life, but still got my dark times So I write rhymes to reveal my life and to keep my sanity outta the vice Chorus: Actin up, that's something physically I can't do, I am sick of tryna be new, I am sick of tryna change you, I am tryna find my old roots then I shall choose to see if I wanna grow from there, no excuse, but I'm overdue, I'm just hopin' my life doesn't fall through Actin up, that's something physically I can't do, I am sick of tryna be new, I am sick of tryna change you, I am tryna find my old roots then I shall choose to see if I wanna grow from there, no excuse, but I'm overdue, I'm just hopin' my life pulls through [Verse 2] I'm walkin' down a one way, path, into the past, so I can change pitty crap into pretty laughs with these witty raps but I can't so I pretty much snap Mentally, So I sit in the back and I dwell on the fact that rap's attackin my life so without lookin' back I stand on the train track and wait for the headlights See them, comin', take a big breath, inhale, exhale, go through a thought process like "Will I be missed? Will they feel bliss? What about that? What about, this?" "Can I move on?", that's a question I've always asked but I can't comprehend These intoxicated promises get in my head from the upper branch of my fam, damn, man it doesn't end I'm always hearin' complaints like I need to change man, and I'm like wait I'm like this because of you and everything you've done and you say we relate, how? I'm lost in a third world mindset, tryna escape but I can't forget cause it's like a race between the past and present but the past consantly wins by forfeit Chorus: Actin up, that's something physically I can't do, I am sick of tryna be new, I am sick of tryna change you, I am tryna find my old roots then I shall choose to see if I wanna grow from there, no excuse, but I'm overdue, I'm just hopin' my life doesn't fall through Actin up, that's something physically I can't do, I am sick of tryna be new, I am sick of tryna change you, I am tryna find my old roots then I shall choose to see if I wanna grow from there, no excuse, but I'm overdue, I'm just hopin' my life pulls through