Irelle Yoko - Red Rain lyrics

INTRO/I'm going insane/I'm fine/I'm breaking inside/I'm okay/It's destroying me/It's nothing/Please help me/Don't worry about it/I'm in so much pain/Things are going good/ 1ST VERSE/I can fake a smile any day, anytime/ Lay in bed thinking ‘bout what I f**ed up in my life/ I'm tortured, by my own mind/ I guess everybody's right, I don't deserve life/ Got chances to have s**, blew each one of them/ Sis, I remember how we talked about us and harem/ Had chances to make friends, but I just don't care/ Empty and useless, I'm drowning in despair/ Writing this stupid sh**, and tears are clouding my eyes/ Every f**ing morning I really wanted to stop with all the lies/ But I know this sickness, won't let me be/ No matter how hard I tried, I never felt free/ My thoughts have destroyed me more than those blades/ I've lost count how many times on that roof I've stayed/ I'm not getting better, but getting used to the pain/ Razor, pills and knife are whispering my name/ CHORUS/Red rain will wash away my pain/ I see no reason in fighting against the game/ This is the last time, I promise/ I won't be doing anything cuz I've fallen/ Red rain, so cold, but here with me/ Red rain, you know I don't wanna be/ Red rain, I'm begging/ Please erase my name/ 2ND VERSE/I was told to be happy, so I'm gonna k** myself/ No one's gonna miss me, when I'll be rotting in Hell/ As usual, in moment of need left alone/ I'm just an angel, who wants to go home/ I want to curl up in a hole and disappear/ Found no happiness, now I see so many things clear/ It's all in my head, I know, I'm going insane/ No heart, no soul, I feel lost inside myself/ My cuts and burns, each one a battle I've lost/ It's okay, I gave up on myself a long time ago/ I'm one of those, who aren't meant to be saved/ I'm not sure if I want to hang on anymore/ I can't escape my thoughts, no goals/ How many years will pa** until they come to check up on my dead body on the floor/ I cut myself, never enough to die, never to deep/ But enough to feel the pain dancing on my cheeks/ CHORUS/Red rain will wash away my pain/ I see no reason in fighting against the game/ This is the last time, I promise/ I won't be doing anything cuz I've fallen/ Red rain, so cold, but here with me/ Red rain, you know I don't wanna be/ Red rain, I'm begging/ Please erase my name/ OUTRO/I don't know what I want in life/I don't know what I want right now/All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me and one day/there won't be any of me left/