Irelle Yoko - Haunted lyrics

INTRO/Mood disorder/Impulse control and addiction disorder/Personality disorder/Self-Harm/ Alcohol/Substance Dependence/Bipolar/Anhedonia/Dissociative Amnesia/Pedophilic Disorder/And so much more/haha/haunted/ CHORUS/I hope I'll die, hope I'll never have to wake up again/ Everything in vain, I feel so much pain/ My mind's haunted, I hear voices all over/ I wanna set up myself on fire and burn like supernova/2TIMES/ 1ST VERSE/I don't remember how it started, but suddenly I was alone/ Forever fighting in a battle the shadow long ago has won/ No matter what I start, I will be failing like always/ It is just like any other of my useless days/ My artwork is all over, my beauty is on my thighs/ If you look in my trash, you'll find my letters of goodbye/ My masterpiece is disturbing, but it's a little glory/ This is my escape, let me tell you my story/ I compared myself to every person, I was always the 3rd/ I knew nobody would ever like to enter my world/ I was bullied and picked on, I was teased from head to toe/ Even my best friend of 9 years became foe/ I disliked everything, my face, body and even mind/ I realized I was a failure, and it was the time/ I couldn't take it anymore, I decided I was done living this/ So I gathered all my strength and decided to end it/ CHORUS/I hope I'll die, hope I'll never have to wake up again/ Everything in vain, I feel so much pain/ My mind's haunted, I hear voices all over/ I wanna set up myself on fire and burn like supernova/2TIMES/ 2ND VERSE/It's always only myself, proud and never calling for help/ Maybe when I'll fly down under, I'll be welcomed into Hell/ And no, I'm not okay, cuz I don't wanna survive/ Look at me, lost as always, existence ain't life/ Nightmares every night, I don't know what it's like/ To feel alive, I‘m lonely and sad running through life/ I had moments where I felt okay, but the feeling doesn't stay/ I cut myself, so I feel it and start to fade away/ So much has happened and today I regret it/ And all these lines are from my bloody past, believe me/ No matter how my day plays out, I never laugh/ I don't wanna know the future, because I am afraid/ It's so fortunate to have a child/ See a beautiful wife that says "I love you" and stays always by your side/ I see the evil smiles cuz it knows I've sinned/ I'm losing hope and strength, that I need to live/ CHORUS/I hope I'll die, hope I'll never have to wake up again/ Everything in vain, I feel so much pain/ My mind's haunted, I hear voices all over/ I wanna set up myself on fire and burn like supernova/2TIMES/ 3RD VERSE/No bu*terflies in my stomach, more like k**er bees inside/ I prefer to erase my thoughts, by getting high/ Devil, give me a sign, please, tell me that you believe/ And bring me back, let me feel for the last time the wind/ I'm used to the Darkness, I don't see any light/ I had goals, but too many were left to rot inside/ It makes me sad, and eats me alive from the core/ Once again my dream was broken into pieces, I can't no more/ I inhale that motherf**ing glue, hoping to leave tonight/ I was always different, I don't deserve life/ I don't deserve a family, no kids, no house, no wife/ I smoke and drink cuz I found myself never being alive/ I don't value friends, I get bored too fast and they disappear/ I found myself in a girl, but now everything is clear/ Even I would give up on my motherf**ing myself/ Once again I overdose, I drown smoke and go to hell/ 4TH VERSE/I even never had s**, but my life is almost over/ I hate being sober, just like that girl when to exhaustion I drove her/ There is no person more pathetic than me/ I'm sure, there is no one in the world more pathetic than me/ I don't wanna stop, anyway, it's already too late/ Deep dead underground without legacy, is my fate/ I remember I used to care, I used to be there/ Now I am gone far away, I wanted to stop everyday/ I'm drinking and smoking away what's left of my rotten body/ I don't feel sorry, guess it was just another sad story/ The feeling in my stomach, the pounding in my head/ The only thoughts in my mind, were wishing I was dead/ Minutes turn into hours, hours turn into days/ Every moment that I lived, was just a smoke filled haze/ Cast spell on someone else, find another prey/ I come to die, not to live, so my life begins today/ CHORUS/I hope I'll die, hope I'll never have to wake up again/ Everything in vain, I feel so much pain/ My mind's haunted, I hear voices all over/ I wanna set up myself on fire and burn like supernova/2TIMES/