Internal Bleeding - Plagued By Catharsis lyrics

Trapped within this spiral torment I have now unleashed my hell As I stare through my dimension Pained emotions start to swell Struggling with this intent to k** myself My life is worthless, something I've always felt No one cares about me, so why should I? Gun to head, knife to throat Now it's time to die Scorned by my peers, my friends, my family This is f**ed up because they should be helping me I am the one who puts myself through this sh** Razor in my hand, my wrists will be slit I must realize what this is doing to me Selfish meditation, can't I see? Happiness is what I need It is my wish but there's too much pain When I'm plagued by catharsis I am the one that feels this pain Rain-fallen tears are not my gain Self-pity is something I hate Now it is time for a clean slate Making a mark is what I'll do Keep on pushing, d**h to the fool My life, no longer black I've got myself back and it's time for me to change Self-pity is gone I now feel strong To conquer all that is thrown at me Feel the power of my soul Now the future is my goal Plagued by catharsis I will rise above Plagued by catharsis Standing proud Plagued by catharsis I now understand Plagued by catharsis My reign at hand Release myself unto this world! My repressed rage will now take form My new being, I am now born Living in this state of anguish is no longer feasible True to myself I am living, it is getting easier I am happy because I now hate No more sorrow, bring forth this trait Weight is lifted from my shoulders My feelings are growing colder No longer plagued by catharsis Now my rage is getting stronger Erased thoughts of my once loved I will not allow myself to get close to anyone I don't need your sympathy Content in my misery Just leave me alone