Insane Clown Posse - Suicide Hotline lyrics

aint no point in me waking up, everybodys time im taking up i got nobody, it aint a shoulder near, i cant stay here and its colder there i dont wanna look back cause its gonna hurt, i slice my wrists and its gonna squirt for me everybody holds a hate, i get backstabbed and everybody holds the stake its no roads to take im in a circle drive, bustin' at my self and im tryna survive i'll disappoint you, and i will let you down, and i aint got namy home boys comin' around you dont understand so dont say you do, i swear i'll put a f**in' slug in you im the only one, the lonely one, at home alone, loading a gun thinkning whay not? i got court comin' up, i stole a truck, i got a b**h pregnant and im broke as f** i wanna get high but i got piss test, im always first name on top of the sh** list get this, the Witch has made my shest its permanent nightly visiting nest it aint no clothes that i look good in, im the motherf**in' big red train that couldnt i got no family i stole they sh**, restraining orders and i still wont quit i hit rock bottom, and then i fell in a hole and then i fell through the floor of that hole some more i been missin' for a year nobody's lookin, i got beat down and my sh** tookin' i looked ahead and all i see is more of the same or this self inflicted bullet hole pouring my brain i drean about cuttin' heads off with a shovel, the dreams are gettin' serious think im in trouble i dont hold memory for more than an hour, im tired as f** and im drained of power i aint half way there and im all outta time, im like a crushed light bulb, all outta shine i been around the world but no place is home i wanna see the other side when i face this chrome im bu*t naked, i been jackin' off gettin' drunk, its my last hours alive who gives a f**? it dont matter, im doing the sh** in the garage, tryna make it easier for them to clean my head splaage this b**h i loved, i hope she finds me, still up in the chair with my thoughts behind me im about to do it can you hold for a second... hello?