Inhansed - Get My Own lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm just tryna stay afloat, on all these rhymes that I wrote On my mind, then they go on a beat in a flow And I know that its cold that I would sell my soul Just to get a deal, gold, or a house. I was told That this --- wasn't easy, I never did believe, see? Look at me, struggling to sell a f**in' CD Believe me, I've only been here for a minute But every second pa**ing, I can feel my chance slippin I ain't -- trying to be, f**in' 23, running these Spelling bees on a beat. As of late, it just seems Like my f**in' shot is now and I gotta take it But my clip is empty-- theres not a shot to make. Its Discouraging seeing evil people start to blow up Hold up, they just started, guess what, sure nuff They're making crowds scream, with their hands in the air Then they get all types of praise and they don't even care [Hook] I just can't believe all this braggidocious rap sh** I'm not trying to preach, but what the f** happened? I'm just tryna' get my own, get my mom a better home Get myself a studio and get myself up on the throne [Verse 2] Now I'm climbing up the ladder, but I start to get madder When I see im gaining fans but I'm losing them faster And the truth of the matter, is that I start to rap sadder Cause I feel like thats the only thing I offer as a rapper People getting props, while I'm pulling all the stops But I feel undercutted 'cause I'm workin at this lots And it feels like I'm lost, but that is only because I can't write normal bars or crate a normal song I'm being called a gimmick, cause theres no one that I mimic And the people on my friendlist are my biggest f**in' critics If I WAS realistic, I'd realize its a lost cause But I'm not, so I'm f**in' here for the long haul If you ever doubted me, behind a keyboard, cowardly I'm happily doing me and some enjoy me rapping these Actually, my doubt is the reason i get worked up At first I thought a curse, but this sh** is just some dumb luck [Hook] I just can't believe all this braggidocious rap sh** I'm not trying to preach, but what the f** happened? I'm just tryna' get my own, get my mom a better home Get myself a studio and get myself up on the throne