INFIDELIX - Streets lyrics

Waking up in my sleeping bag And my back hurts more then the night before At the bottom of doors theres nothing more colder then sleeping on floors I search something more, but I'm lost now I can't seem to find my direction, I've broken ties with everyone I know Theres no room left for intervention So here I am I still haven't died I need to survive I need to just try I'm stealing for food I am done with this life I need to live right I feel less like a man and more like a robot I'm running in circles I dont't give a damn I am what I am and I feel so worthless and that's not my plan why the f** I deserve this No that's not my plan why the f** I deserve this No thats not my plan why the f** I deserve this Hook: I am not a man cause a man wouldn't live like this I am not a man cause a man would get out this sh** I am just what I am and what I am is so monsterous I am just what I am and what I am I just need to quit I don't know why you think this is all fun and games This is my life, I'm searching for shelter in rain don't even have change to my name I feel so ashamed The world had a light but the light is now gone I did everything right but it turned out so wrong I did everything right but it turned out so wrong I did everything right but it turned out so wrong This is my song but it's more like a plea I'm praying for something I'm down on my knees I'm screaming for help but it's like a disease I wish I had more but this life is not free It comes at a cost, running in circles I'm back to square one Running in circles I'm back to square one Running in circles I'm back to square one Running in circles but I still feel lost (Lawriii Craic) I'm not a man I can't live like this Have I gone mad, I wasn't built for this Clothes in my bag like the white in pocket I'm hiding my options by lighting a spliff The voice isnt stopping I'm calling it quits, if the boys go out robbing i'll take what i get I have no problem of hitting a b**h Níl aon rud agam , do you speak the language? Banging up smack from the top of the bridge I feel safe when i jump till the smack of a hit Lands with a thump like the bang of a brick just when i though that i got the hang of this sh** With the flick of a lightbulb it smashed with a glimpse, just a flick of the light of what lies in the mist The kids are out beating up dyslexics, their parents at home claiming their benefits... And thats not the plan, why the f** i deserve this? I do what i can to stay out of the cirles that im living in, yo Must be a god to survive in this hell ruined my plans now im down on the virtue that living brings Life is a puzzle i can't solve parralel to myself man im living in symmetry Put my heart in these raps but i don't want no sympathy I'm not the same don't know whats gotten into me I was told that good and bad lives in synergy , may hit up god since i have been sinnning G I've been holy divinity ,giving is not something that you can give to me Hitting this sh** sipping whiskey inherently pissed Incoherently blitzed like a blitzkreig yo i got speed this is god speed meets gatsby Like a stampede to the d**h I'm like ramsey when he's vexed, like anniseed to amylase spitting up an acquired taste See that you require is faith but see me, I want higher than great I want fire no grave... But thats not my plan why the f** i deserve this