[Verse 1] I will choke until I swallow... Choke this infant here before me What is this but my reflection? Who am I to judge and strike you down? [Chorus] But you're Pushing and shoving me You still love me and you push it on me [Verse 2] Rest your trigger on my finger Bang my head upon the fault line Take care not to make me enter Because if I do we both may disappear [Chorus] But you're pushing me Shoving me. Push it on me [Verse 3] Slipping back into the gap again I'm alive when you're touching me Alive when you're shoving me down But I'd trade it all For just a little bit of Peace of mind Put me somewhere I don't want to be Seeing someplace I don't want to see Never want to see that place again Saw that gap again today As you were begging me to stay Managed to push myself away And you, as well If, when I say I may fade like a sigh if I stay You minimize my movement anyway I must persuade you another way There's no love in fear Staring down the hole again Hands upon my back again Survival is my only friend Terrified of what may come Just remember I will always love you Even as I tear your f**ing throat away But it will end no other way