No, no, no I don't even know anymore I can't, I can't, I can't even see through this right now No, no, no I don't even know right now I don't want to die one day So petrified by just the thought of it We let it pa** us by We never think about it But we can't deny One day we'll run low on our energy We'll take our last breath And when I think about it It makes me numb to life's issues All of life's struggles and hardships Forget the present moment I always think on the future, a moment which has not yet pa**ed But I know it will, so what can I do? Is there something more for me to do? More than the usual panic attacks and dread There must be more to this than d**h and fear I don't even know anymore Don't ask me, I don't know I can't think, I don't know Confusion and cloudy judgment overlap my emotion To be at ease seems but a distant memory I don't even know anymore I never knew