Your Demise - Dreaming of believing lyrics

Exhausted, too tired to feel tired This steam's still blowing off How the f** do I think I can hold myself together There's no way to stay on top My eyes are wired, my hearts beating slow My head's confused, doesn't know where to go Twisting and turning to find a way out But my head's in a place where nobody knows My heads in the clouds, dreaming of believing But these dreams don't last that long I can't sleep, it makes me sink like an anchor I'm deep into something that won't feel wrong Now my head's coming out, I wonder what it's all about Try to figure what my body's done to me Lay my head on the pillow and hope for the best Because when I think of you, I feel I might just sleep Hopeless messages to a brain that can't even process thoughts How the f** do I intend on making my choice? I've now spent most my life, dreaming of believing When's the time to step up and use my f**ing voice? I'm going out of my mind Spent most my life under the weather the other half under the thumb As the world went rushing by, I told myself those same nonsensical lies And all the while you were right here in front of my eyes