It's funny how lunatic I can be Going on extremes as fast as it can be And as soon as I'm in my shelter, I'm feelin warm safely Face to face with my head, k**ing me softly I'm eaten by the doubt, my armour is crackin Fallen from my cloud, low-key, down egotrippin It's time to not pretend and show my real face The man behind the mask, the kid fearin himself I'm loosin confidence, diggin my nails till my blood gets spilled Hurtin my flesh, in this emptiness, maybe the end is near Cause I might as well be lyin to myself, lyin to my fam' Well in this cocoon while I'm just waitin for my time to pa** And the nails keep being dug untill I finally realize I'm not able to take my chances cause this suit is too upsized I'm wonderin what will be the next step, where are my new plans But still to this day, tommorow seems a bit strange Pal I admire you, look up to you, though sometimes I'm wonderin if It would've been the same if it wasn't for her that you jumped off the cliff You left it all behind, paused 20 years of your life Run away from us to someone who let you down I know it's been rough on the edge though you too closed to close talkin Hope in the end that you find your new silverlinin You're a strong one pal, I hope you realize That one day, we'll make this promise toast closer to the sky It's me, myself and I cause my aim is going high But if you leave me all alone, this all would be a f**in' lie This song is another dark song and I hate myself for that Anotha cryin about it all, maybe I'm just a copycat Copy copy cat, lookin like a kitty cat My complaint is complainin bout the things that I don't have But maybe it's not get that complacent taht I bully myself Till the moment of clarity finally shows itself I lived years strugglin, fightin for daddy pride More than ever alone, sometimes divin inside And I'm wavin hands but he wouldn't see me Im screamin out loud but he would't even hear me Can't remember waves but still can feel my pain Made me mad angry till I wanna dig his grave f** that, Im moving steps to steps Im climbing the scale, till I see no more stairs And fit in my shoes? when nobody can't I'm just livin good, waitin for the first grand Im getting strong, sometimes like a rock But I can't help myself watchin that tickin clock I've seen friends turnin enemies, good girls turnin b**hes They say tables turn, maybe this's my time to get the cheese f**ing weird how they look at life, n***a straighten up Time to switch it up, stop lookin down and chin it up I hate when it all comes to the point That moment When we all have to fall apart I guess I should focus more on some people than other one When you text me just to tell me you're alive, that's when I know But I ain't mad, I guess I'm not on your top 5 Gotta choose the real, separate from the fakes, fine Mind full of noise, 7pm at the airport Just wanna rest in peace, fly away from these dark thoughts