XVNNIE - Are You Happy lyrics

(Verse 1) Inside of me feels like a void, and I'm just so annoyed Was it your plan to leave me so destroyed? Cuz I'm missing my boy, but my boy ain't missing me & I guess I'm starting to see, that it wasn't meant to be Or was it just the wrong time? Every morning I tell myself the same lie That today he's gonna come back & everything will be alright I've even been telling other n***as that I am not able to love And they ask me why and I tell them it's cause I think I'm f**ed up So they can love me all they want, but I doubt I will care They can know everything about me, but don't they know that I won't be there? I shouldn't even be feeling like this Wishing for a kiss, since I don't have any lean to wash over my lips Or a Xan plus the lean to trip and have a good dream A beautiful druggy, Drowning sadness in xannies Why do you not love me? Mind, soul & body, but mind over matter Do you not care or does it just not matter? Cause I get sadder and sadder Tears covering the laughter that I should be having, but that sh** ain't happening Why do guys hurt good girls? Why is it that when the heart hurts, the hurt k**s? (hook x2) Like are you f**ing happy now? Are you f**ing happy now? You happy now? You happy now? Are you f**ing happy now? Are you f**ing happy... (Verse 2) Honestly, what is happening to me? Honestly, will things ever get better? Honestly, there's plenty fish in the sea But what if I'm tiring of fishing? Honestly, I cry subconsciously And when I rhyme I rhyme unconsciously Cuz all this sh** is a dream and I don't know if waking up is right for me And I'm doing all these d** & hoping that I die to it Honestly, I couldn't cry for him He know all my favorite things, including my favorite chocolate He know about my past & about the future we predicted He know about my sadness, and about what that dick did He know about the Xans and how I am addicted He know about how I'm tripping all the time, even at school But the saddest thing he know is that he'll never be you He know he won't ever get my love, he won't ever be my man He know he's not gonna be the one putting the ring on my hand He know I'll never have his son, he know he'll never have his song He know he couldn't be my one, he know it'll never work He know he might could get a line, but never a full verse He know he might could hit my line, but he'll never know where it hurt And he know he could find where the Angels are, but he'll never find the area the demons lurk (hook x2) (Verse 3) Now let's sip this lean until we can't feel what we feeling And let's pop these xans so I can speed up the healing And let's pretend we see all of our thoughts on the ceiling While we lay here on the carpet, awake but we're dreaming And I'm living a nightmare, awake and I'm screaming But you're living in happiness, that smile still beaming Waiting for when it doesn't end in August And when September doesn't make me go thru all this All over again in October, birthday wishes to be happy "You should be able to spend November without your voice sounding raspy And spend December with the fam instead of not being chatty Share your lyrics with the world and stop f**ing drafting Maybe you'll get noticed, maybe good sh** will happen!" Maybe good sh** will happen.. Maybe good sh** will happen (hook x2)