Witt Lowry - Wonder If You Wonder lyrics

Know its been a long time, I hear you're doing just fine Graduated, got a job and you been working a grind You're never looking behind I know you never found me crossing your mind But I'd be lying if you didn't cross mine From time to time I see some of your pictures online Kindest Regards was hard, I left my heart on the line I wrote a song for you, took a couple months of my time How can you praise him for flowers and a bottle of wine? You'll never be mine, remember the time I came to see you? I thought it would just be you, but there's twelve other people You see there was never "We" so we could never be a sequel Thought it might've been a date the day, did anything to see you But I'm nothing more than nothing, you're bluffing saying you care Our only real connection is memories that we share I would never try to blame you, cause blaming you isn't fair Not that you care, the stress is really starting to wear And in my music, I took our story and I used it Don't care how you were feeling, I'm busy dropping my new sh** Know people gonna love it, I'm buzzing after I do it I'm gifted with the curse of honesty and the truth is I loved you more than words, I didn't know how to prove it Can't tell you that in person, but always could through my music Everyone who said they cared isn't there, now I'm confused I'm broken and bruised, lonely, open, empty and stupid and still I I thought I had it all figured out No, you would never fall for me now I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now You can hear the pain in my sound, laughed as I fell to the ground I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now And I can't lie, it hurt a little when you said you didn't want me To know I never tried is what continues to haunt me Every pic I see is you and him, his twitter tryna taunt me You think I let it go? This is old and exhausting Some offspring family in a house is what I thought about Sometimes I wonder if he'll get that now See we know that you picked a different path Me I picked a different route And I can't help but laugh at how this all played out You're over me now, I'm hoping you found only the best Remember when we used to rep that Kanye West? Graduation and rotation cause you liked that best And back then I didn't want you, now look I'm a mess I open my chest, look through me, you can see no spine My profile pic and lyrics I've been hiding behind It looks like you found the love that I was hoping to find The only you I love is the one that I create in my mind and still I I thought I had it all figured out No, you would never fall for me now I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now You can hear the pain in my sound, laughed as I fell to the ground I wonder if you wonder why I'm never around I wonder if you, I wonder if you wonder what I'm doing right now [x2] I often wonder if you ever did care I wonder why in my mind is the only time you ever were there See we were friends, but that felt more like pretend This year is awfully clear, the real us is what I fear The one where we were only friends and I acted like we dated And nowadays our conversation is, "Hey happy belated" And every song I wrote for you, you know you actually hate it Because you realize that you never felt the same when you played it You never cared if I made it, that's why I waited, you know me See all the love that I've been getting through my phone feels phony I rhyme a couple words together, every girl wanna blow me Were in a world full of people yet I'm feeling so lonely If only I could tell myself there's plenty of fish in the sea But see the sea if full of sharks, fake guppies and greed And as I find myself drowning while I'm fighting to breathe I realize that I'm in love with what I thought we could... be