Withered - Like Locusts lyrics

I lay in filth My thougths decay I wish I could turn off my mind Flip of a switch Eternal All goes black No more angst No more sadness No more confusion No more anger No more pain No more love Only black Only peace How long must I go before I realize that this is not for me? That I;m slowly dying, rotting from the inside Lying in the dark Muffled sounds sound So distant in this silence Explode in my ears They invade me They envelope me Like locusts suffocating me The current Too strong Growing tired and weary maelstrom Its embrace Is pulling me under We succumb to its violence Never knowing when that time will come I've fought it far too long Now it's time to let myself go Now it's time Achieving peace Now it's time Let go Of the guilt Now it's time Stop my beating heart