Wilson Nelles - Pain lyrics

Verse 1: Grew up with no brothers No sisters So witnessing the sh** I witnessed I couldn't grip No one to consort With Watched wwe On live tv When i was 3 Loved watching it With daddy Violence was always in My life my dad made me Watch horror movies At a young age And i started drawing violent Images from three and up Later on became an issue in school days And school plays Started becoming a danger to my peers And always will because eventually I would turn into the ten year old Who wanted to k** Mom and dad they were always arguing While i was sitting alone playing And playing silent Because when they started to act Violent it was like watching an intense Movie Unnecessary i dont think this kind Of love should be tarnished We already lost the harness I dont wanna be dishonest But when i describe these events It feels like a present tense Chorus: I lost myself that night I lost myself that night To the past flashbacks Verse 2: Flashbang after flashbang i see myself in the mirror the memories hurt to think about I want to scream and shout and tell The world aloud that this Is all on me naw this is all on you My predictions were met with Expectations i remember From september to november sh** is to brain dismembering Seeing my father like dat And seeing my mom committing to The act Funny when your mom is Doing the act And dad reacts seven to eight years later By ending up in prison I felt like i was prison 10 years later at 13 i had to deal with my moms bf who makes Expectations trying to be poppa I just tell him to get the f** out my way I dont like him and i never will and thats how its gunna stay I know being a boy back than Maturity was less equal to respect But i dont respect an impersonator Nor someone who causes stress and gives me anger f** you drill Sargent Chorus: I lost myself that night I lost myself that night Memory of a child Living life full of fright Outro: Coffee pot broken in pieces on the floor Toys all over the floor Dad on the floor scrambling Mom swinging and yelling Me crying saying my life is in pieces Seeing my mom on the floor And my dad beaten up think i have had enough