Wilson Nelles - Delusional thinking lyrics

Verse 1: I'm living the poor mans dream A family A grade 12 graduation An Education And income a**istan' Sons father was built off Tragedy this was my reality Now he got an abusive Anger filled mentality 9 years old is how ol I was when I saw myself In the mirror with blood pouring Down my wrists I remember growing up to Drug addicted parents Out on 32846 14th avenue Apartment 201 where it all Begun I guess my mum Wasn't really thinking All to clearly I guess I was to busy Drinking Only alcohol abuse I be doing is Self-opinion Make me lie to myself And lie to people around me Just because I believe what is To be Just At this time I was 15 3 plus 2 man I must be losing My sh** I am making a conspiracy Like Illuminati linking threes With everything I do in life Chorus 1: Oh my god I can't believe It what it is I am doing Now Looking around while I am Sleeping awake See only black shadows in Front of me Really I'm just looking at myself And don't realize the Darkness in me personally Delusions x4 Verse 2: I am hallucinating Swallowing d**h for breakfast I digest its bones Hearing cellular d**h tones Cardiopulmonary arrest I just felt something explode In my chest I ain't A Marine With an alien In my chest I am a boy With delusional thoughts And found myself Being left with stress Thoughts of d**h And murder depress My mind I express My hardships and no One can relate I Find As a bear on the force Thinking no remorseful Thoughts I can only Think what they would think of An unremorseful cop Who would not stop At the thought Of every person Being shot Like a dictator Call me a hater Call me the fader I am d**hs crusader I don't need to see any Paper I only need to see p**y labor and a dream I think all these thoughts Lead to requiem Chorus 2: Your delusional Delusional x4 Brain contusions Have magnetic pulls Brain contusions only Happen to fools Slain confusions I drop my tools Wilson is in the madhouse Yet again Lock me up with My parents Lock me up without The key and now Watch it go up in Flames like my Native ancestry x 2