Why? - As a Card lyrics

I'll hold my own d**h as a card in the deck To be played when there are no other cards left I'll slip into the ocean, unnoticed And notify no one on a notarized form Enter slow on a hot summer morning Like that one-legged locksmith in cold rain But I'll hold my own d**h as a card in the deck To be played when there are no other cards left As time drags on and I thin and whiten and my beard grows long I might look like Walt Whitman All sunken-eyed and dry and without pigment But I want to be spry as a newborn kitten And I'll hold my own d**h as a card in the deck To be played when there are no other cards left I want to open like the bay does to the ocean With an equal portion of every emotion Or soldier forward and be hard as a flat board With the heart of an approaching asteroid Let go and ride like a cat's toy in a dryer Stay true to my matter like a brick in fire Wrapped in my long years like a spool of wire Unspoiled by the foils of fame and desire So I'll hold my own d**h as a card in the deck To be played when there are no other cards left Hold my own d**h as a card in the deck