Why? - Into the Shadows of My Embrace lyrics

[Verse 1] I conquered my own childhood silence And now the world is my lit confessional marquee But it'd take a busload of high school s**er girls To wash those hospitals off me [Pre-Hook] Oh, am I clean? Nineteen They said s** will keep you young and make you older at the same time They said s** will have left you aged normally A-And so I guess it's sorta like smoking and walking at the same time In that it will have left you aged normally [Hook] Oh, am I clean? Lord, please Why me? [Verse 2] I wish I could feel close to somebody but I don't feel nothing Now they say I need to quit doing all this random fff- Now I think my upstairs neighbor hears me masturbating And there's other ones peeping through the slips in my curtains And I never got a name for my shady compulsion Cause I messed up and kissed my shrink in a Jersey City hotel room And I know saying all this is public should make me feel funny But you gotta yell something out you'd never tell nobody [Bridge x2] We found a dead fox and a dozen matchbox cars When we cut back the hedges on Cortelyou Place How many got lost, left so long they grew moss cause They recoiled into the shadows of my embrace We found a dead fox and a dozen matchbox cars When we cut back the hedges on Cortelyou Place How many got lost, left so long they grew moss cause They recoiled into the shadows of my embrace [Hook] Am I clean? Lord, please Why me?