When Came April - Last Kiss lyrics

THERE IS A WAR IN MY HEAD THAT I CAN'T WIN SO I HAVE SHOWN THE WHITE LONG TIME AGO I AM IN MY PRISON LOCKED AND I CAN'T FLEE MY BACKGROUND SHADOWS ME ANYWHERE I GO IN MY FOUR WALLS OF DISTRESS I LOST MYSELF AND I AM LOOKING FOR THE ANSWERS TO MY PAIN I AM A MEMBER OF THE FELLOWSHIP OF SADNESS I KNOW THAT MY LAST TATTERS OF HOPE ARE SLAIN IT TEARS ME INTO PIECES NO ONE CAN CATCH ME WHEN I FALL NO TIME WITHOUT A THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT WAS HAPPENING LAST TIME SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND SENSELESS TEARS USELESS FIGHTS AND FUTURE FEARS I WILL TELL YOU WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE ALONE I CAN TELL YOU ALL THESE THINGS YOU DIDN'T KNOW I DID NOT SAY EVERY WORD YOU WANNA HEAR ABOUT THE FEELINGS THAT I'VE HAD WHEN I WAS NEAR... BY YOU I ALWAYS HOPED THERE IS SUN BEHIND THIS CLOUD THAT ONE DAY YOU WILL TAKE ME TIGHT BY MY HAND WHAT I REGRET TILL THE END OF MY WHOLE LIFE I DID FORGET OUR LAST KISS I AM TRYING TO FORGET IT MAYBE I AM TRYING TO HATE JUST FOR SECONDS I CAN FLY BEFORE REALITY STRIKES BACK SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND SENSELESS TEARS USELESS FIGHTS AND FUTURE FEARS WERE THEY RIGHT THE DECISIONS THAT I'D MADE (WHAT DO I FEEL) COULD IT BE, PAIN, SORROW OR JUST HATE (I CAN'T CONCEAL) IT IS LIKE, I KILLED MYSELF AND DIED (IT SEEMS UNREAL) I KNOW THAT I HAVE LOST MY FIGH