$WAGGOT - (self-)destructive lyrics

I built a mansion of lies Or least just a bedroom But my intentions were pure Pure as a virgin or two And now im knocking it down Apd wrecking crew I got in over my head Tongue first in oceans of you I swore it wasn't the same I'll never shoulder the blame But yet again i remain safe Watching identical flames I did it all to myself But im not really in pain The smoke is bad for my health But it's a small price to pay You see my problem is this I woke up like this Covered in his piss 'cos i wanted to impress And all i really regret Is that i meant what i said But somehow planned it ahead Before i got into bed You see it happens Automatically Before i realize what im saying Words are burying me I know its my responsibility But when i think of what i said It feels so foreign to me Like someones got control over me