It's so nice to know That even though you've seen the end of relationships Even though you've been exposed to somebody not giving a sh** about you Seen somebody wanting to hate you Seen somebody actually hating you When you've been to the other side of the gra** And it's just dead Because you didn't get the happily ever after And you thought “all gra** has to be f**ing brown” Because you couldn't see past your pasture Even though your innocence was given away Like an arranged marriage at a yard sale It's so nice to know that People can help you remember What that first kiss felt like Even after you've crossed that road Burned that f**ing t-shirt And threw away that key-locked journal that held Your memories of Her perfume And knowing you have to wake up in two hours For 8AM Chemistry But staying up anyways She invited me to a party And we danced far away enough to not have to deal With the awkwardness of liking each other I picked up my feet To the beat So that she didn't have to sweep me off the floor Like she already had before I'm a**uming it's a lot of hard work to be so gorgeous And so I told her I told her “you're gorgeous!” And oh my god She couldn't handle it She had to turn away But she couldn't look away at the same time Just smiling over her shoulder Her eyes squinted With full intention of Still being able to see me And goddamn Her whole body As 127 degrees turned away from me as it was Was smiling Gleaming at me Because I'm hoping that she knew How much I've been hoping to renew My library card of cuddling And becoming something And we exponentially couldn't deal with How nice it sounded Ultimately Closing her eyes But so totally Wholly So fully Gleaming at me That was only a series of like 5 seconds I thought it couldn't have gotten any better But when she reconciled with herself If reconciled is even the right word We had no qualms to deal with rather than the mutual fact that It was so nice But anyways she came up to me And so simply said “this isn't over” Laughed And she So simply Kissed me on the cheek And it was So simply Like What we childishly imagine Swimming through a cloud is like That hug Could have never been too long But forever and a f**ing half Still wasn't enough time to get everything we wanted out of that hug Because the conjoining of two bodies Never made so much sense to me The only thing I felt like I could do to show what I was f**ing dealing with Was kiss her on the hand And after missing And kissing her mildly sweaty knuckles I wondered how hands could ever hurt somebody How hands can press the bu*tons that drop bombs on innocent people How hands could curl into a fist And land on a temple of an undeserving nerd But the conjoining of those two bodies Made me feel like they couldn't