VNV Nation - Forsaken lyrics

Song contains reference from the movie adaption of George Orwell's 1984 and Clips from the film Jacob's Ladder, released in 1990 --- (For thirty years, I have plotted to bring down the party. I am sick in mind and body) When I have nothing left to feel When I have nothing left to say I'll just let this slip away I feel these engines power down I feel this heart begin to bleed As I turn this burning page Please forgive me if I bleed Please forgive me if I breathe I have words I need to say Oh so very much to say And whose life do I lead? And whose blood do I bleed? Whose air do I breathe? With whose skin now do I feel? I'm supposed to walk away from here I'm supposed to walk away from here (Help me) And whose life do I lead? Whose blood do I bleed? Whose air do I now breathe? I'm convinced there's nothing more The day you died I lost my way The day you died I lost my mind What am I supposed to do? Is there something more? The engines power down Like a soldier to his end I go Because I'm convinced That there is nothing more And whose life do I lead And whose air do I breathe? With whose blood and whose skin do I feel? What happens now? Have I done something wrong? Forgive my need to bleed right now Please forgive my need to breathe But I've so much to say And it wouldn't matter anyway You're not here to hear these words that I must say And I'm convinced inside That there is nothing more Whose life do I lead? Whose air do I breathe Whose blood do I now bleed? With whose skin now do I feel? Nothing left to say Nothing left to feel Am I supposed to let this go now Let darkness come and take you away (If you're frightened of dying, and you're holding on You'll see the devils are tearing your life away If you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels Freeing you from the earth.)